Fucking Pissed

that I’m in this situation. I never wanted to move to x state to begin with. Never wanted to move in with mother bc she’s fucking crazy. But nooo, everyone wanted me to move in, and me stupidly wasn’t aware at how crappy and awful the conditions in the house were. And then I got convinced to move into the “studio” where it’ll be “renovated.” pffft. The place is still a dump. What got renovated was done a shit job by the contractor. And what wasn’t renovated was the other half and it’s all rotten old wood and falling apart. It’s disgusting here.

I’m stuck in a tiny ass room and the “kitchen” and “closet” is unusable bc it smells musty like mold/mildew in there. And the “hallway” where the connecting point is (where the shitty ass closet is) also stinks like musty mold/mildew. And that door has to be opened every time I step out the room -_-

And that’s not counting how batshit crazy and controlling my mother is. I can’t fucking stand her and now she hates me too. Things are just fucking shitty. And all bc THEY all wanted me to fucking me here. For what? I hate everything about being here- I hate this shitty house, I hate this shitty city, I hate the fucking humidity that’s fucking making my fungus worse, I hate how all my stuff is all fucking ruined bc mother did not clear any space in the house and forced me to put all my stuff in the nasty ass garage that STINKS. All my stuff from the last 15 years. Fucking Destroyed.

She treats me like shit and would dare not treat my other siblings this way, but she would treat me like this. It’s fucking disgusting. I hate being born into my shit family. They’re all fucking shitty to me. I hate being here. I hate being conned into moving here and now I’m fucking stuck. FML. Just FML.