Right, so for the last however many months Tuesday at 1 PM has been my therapy time. I let my therapist know I didn’t know if I could keep the time, I had to talk to my supervisor. I don’t exactly have a lot of assertiveness in this situation right now.
But things worked out, I got the time off, and I showed up, only to find I had no appointment. The issue ended up being I didn’t have the time or energy to investigate why. My current therapist is moving on, getting a new job out of state, good for her… . but I’m supposed to be getting a new therapist, and this is kind of the worst time to have that added stressor for me. Because I started a new job a week ago. That new job keeps me busy for the entire time their clinic is open, apart from my lunch hour, which can change at my supervisors whim.
*sigh*
So I’m thinking about giving up therapy. Not because I want to, or think I’m ready. Just because, something has to give here. I’m giving my all, working full time, then coming home and working an additional 1-3 hours a day on household stuff. I don’t have the energy or emotional whatever to care…. not even getting into that because of my hours I have to see rush hour both ways. You know today I was almost home five minutes early? But noooooooooooooo, stupid bridge backed up traffic a mile, and I didn’t realize that until I was in it.
that’s another issue, I kinda despise giving up another hour of my week, my off time, to anyone. Family gets a lot of it, and it’s good, I like family. But when I get me time, I don’t know….. I don’t want to spend it ironing out appointments, that’s what I do for a living.