There’s a line I haven’t crossed yet. It’s the fuck everyone line. If I wanted to, I could be evil. Maybe I already am. I’ve never killed anyone, never SAed anyone, never robbed anyone…but I know I’m very capable of it. What is it that keeps me from crossing that line? Fear, I think. Fear of prison, fear of destroying whatever good is in me. But I think about it a lot, especially in times when I feel undervalued.
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it’s one off though, most of the time. and the very thing you set out to say, screw society for failing you…. then society just puts you in a box of criminal…. I can see how things could reach such a point, mainly because I’ve been there a few times myself. To the edge anyway, right up to almost. I’ve been able to cloak that in pscyhiatric conditions, I still am amazed that I haven’t suffered consequences as close as I’ve come.
Anyway, it’s not what’ll be destroyed, it’s living with it that’s the issue. Most people suck at that part. Humans aren’t good at cold anti social behavior. If we are, it’s a whole host of disorders, it’s actually a physical lack of the fear you’re talking about. But if you’re that cold….. you stand out so it’s pretty easy to pick you out from a crowd.
Rational people confess. Psychopaths are bad at hiding. Then you have the deviants like me just enough of both to know that if I did any behavior that could draw that kind of attention……. well I wouldn’t get away with it. I’ve stolen a few times, it’s less of a thrill than you’d think. But direct crime, crime with intent and planning….. seems to be more a thing of film and fantasy than fact.
People do try. They just usually only try once. I’m not even telling you not to, just advising statistics. You get the one life. If you’re going to commit a jailable offence, I figure you need to net about $2 mil that you can actually hide before getting caught. Seems to me that’s quite the trick, I wouldn’t know how to even start.
But I am actually pretty firmly against SA. Go to the BDSM community, there are people who will let you do all sorts of awful things to them, for the asking. Consent is the decent thing to do. Seriously, no reason to bother someone who isn’t into it. Heck, PAY someone if you’re really that hard up…. I’ve just cleaned up those messes too much
I can tell you what I thought about the people that committed SA, if it helps. I thought that they were lacking empathy.
If you ever do go evil, please take it out on the perpetrators, not on innocent ppl.
While I am not evil, I can certainly understand why some ppl go postal. Hell, I understand more than most why some ppl go postal.
We live in a pressure cooker world- we are undervalued, underpaid, underappreciated. Costs are insane. We have very little space between 1 house/apt and another. There way more issues than that but modern life isn’t easy in the least. There’s so much stress.
But anyhow, if you happen to cross that line, do evil onto those that’s screwed you over rather than targeting innocent ppl who had nothing to do with you.
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well i wrote a whole thing and it didn’t post. bleh! -_-
It’s shocking how easy it I’d to cross that line. Just stop talking to anyone you ever cared about, don’t make meaningful relationships with anyone ever again, and you’re pretty much there.
If you’re extremely self reliant, maybe you can make that work.
I personally can’t do that, I’m lucky enough to at least have family that loves me and I can’t just stop caring about them.
I’ve been failing to become more self reliant though.
Maybe something like this could help people if it wasn’t something where you have to cross a moral line. Just something where you learn to be independent by cutting yourself off from family finances and doing what you need to do to survive and thrive on your own, taking control of your own life in the process without considering anything anyone else says and going off of what you need in your own life.
I’m just spitballing here.
easy it would be*
where you did not have to cross a moral line*