I got raped last year I was 16 and a virgin it was by someone I really trusted he was 21 I had known him since I was 12 and he was 17 I feel stupid saying we were friends but that’s how it felt we would talk and hang out sometimes but we hadn’t hung out in a while before it happened. I have spent the past year struggling trying to deal with it a couple weeks after it happened I ended up dating my best friend. That came with it’s own set of problems because one of my cousins around my age that I was really close with had liked him a couple months before so once we started dating my friends and family talked shit about me for about two months then my grandfather died and we just all stopped talking. Now I started talking to them again and we were hanging out last week we were going to drink and just hang out but I went on TikTok and on my for you page was the guy that raped me. It was a video of his daughter. So I found out that 2 or 3 weeks after he raped me he moved to a different state with his girlfriend and had a baby. Ever since I found out I have been so irritable and if someone touches me or gets to close I start having a mental breakdown and idk what to do because I spent so long trying to get better and that just set me back so far that I feel hopeless
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I’m so sorry that happened to you. I’m sorry that’s all I can say. I’m sorry you ever had to see that cocksucker’s face again. I hope things get better for you.
It should be acknowledged: this is a lot. You’ve been through a lot. So it’s totally understandable why you’re feeling the way you’re feeling.
Your rapist is a piece of shit and best cut out of your life. I’m too old for TikTok, can you block people on that app? If not, maybe time for a social media detox. I don’t see how you can heal with random pop ups from this person.
I took a break from social media I went on it that day for the first time in about a month but I didnt know he had a TikTok but the part that I hate the most is how I make excuses for him to try to justify what he did and not having any closer on that whole situation is just starting to get to me I think
It’s natural that you would want closure on the situation (if that’s what you meant? and ‘closer’ was a typo?) But… this is just my opinion and maybe I’m wrong, but I don’t think you’re going to get it from him. It sounds like you miss his friendship and that’s maybe why you make excuses for him… but considering that he violated your trust, maybe the friendship wasn’t real in the first place?