I would love to have someone to talk to about my interests, what’s on my mind, to learn about people. to laugh until I’m hurting with someone, I haven’t done that in years. since isolating myself and denying myself stimuli, my personality has flatlined and it feels like my brain is shutting down. i want to learn to speak to people again, it is physically difficult to do. it feels so hard to return to normal, i find it impossible to talk to people my own age (20) because everyone seems so hostile, everyone has this “us vs them” mentality all the time and it’s hard as an autistic to navigate these tones and social cues.
i’m thinking of seeing a psychologist but i’m not sure how they differ from a regular talking therapist and they cost twice as much, i wonder if they would be better at handling the topic of suicide. i’m trying to be better, very slowly. i guess i’ll “hang on” alone in my room.
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Somebody can correct me if I am wrong, but I believe a psychologist can recommend and write prescriptions after listening to your concerns. While a therapist can just listen and offer advice. But don’t quote me on that.
Having said that, I completely understand what you mean. Humans crave interaction. We are social creatures who thrive on the sunlight. Without it, we whither up and die like long forgotten plants tucked away in a dark and windowless room. Have you thought about joining a book club? Or maybe something similar just to get some social interaction in? Everybody wants to be loved and cherished, it’s just a matter of believing that your worth that type of goal. Some people spend their entire lives chasing the elusive goal of happiness, but I still believe that it can be achieved.
only psychiatrists can write prescriptions. psychologists and therapists cannot.
Gotcha, I stand corrected.