I dance around it, complain about other things as if they are the main problem, but the real main problem between me and most of the species is that they don’t see the way I do. It’s taken me years of working on myself to try and express this, and I still don’t know if I’ll succeed.
Other human beings have a sort of intuitive sense for conforming. They see and hear things differently because they didn’t have to push those two senses like I did. Not to say either approach is better, just that I’m frustrated that they can’t see mine.
I wish I could think of a closer example than this, but I have to go with the only commonality between me and the two women who I try to relate to most often at work my team lead and supervisor. They’re close enough in age, we all follow true crime and they are a little politically saavy.
So we were talking about a particular case, and it showed me how they see differently. This is an active case, and the details don’t matter the difference does. It’s a murder one trial with the accused being a white man in his 20s. He’s also a fan of true crime, to the point of making a career studying it.
They were focused on how guilty he was, and that’s the mistake everyone makes in these cases. Remember, a little politically saavy. I get that they only really care about cases they are paid to, though I can’t imagine why since the agency doesn’t care about at least half of those.
They don’t play any games in their private lives, like video games, logic games, any of it, and it shows. The US court system is one of the most challenging logic games ever designed. It is forever being updated, and sometimes you get disconnected for some time and that’s just tough gravy.
This guy? He’s a powergamer, he studies the game. You should never take such a person for what they appear to be, they are the most manipulative human beings I’ve ever met.
So when I’m talking about him, his guilt is immaterial to the strategy being worked out now. Granted, I’m a spectator, but I care, this is my outlet to take apart public criminal trials. Some people like football.
Which means I spend way more time than I should trying to get into this guy’s head. and that’s where I stand apart from most of the species. I was looking at some old cases, thinking about what it felt like to look at those cases from several sides.
It happens dozens of times a day, in our regular clients; I see one version of them, my boss sees another.
So I just find myself apologizing, over and over. That’s what they really pay me for, to say what a truly sorry state we live in.
They can’t see it though, they just see the need to tighten the belt, consequences be damned I suppose.
It’s why I’ve always gotten along better with delinquents and other outcasts, because they don’t mind that I can get into the heads of people who don’t look like them.
It’s the normal people who are quietly disturbed, when they realize how out of touch they are.
I can already hear/read Eternaldarkness’ reply “They don’t give two shits how out of touch they are”…… I know that, it was for poetic symmetry.
I think it was Mary Poppins who observed that most people can’t see beyond the end of their own nose. Never thought that would be fundamental wisdom of the universe type stuff, but there we are.
Also; feed the birds, tuppence a bag, tuppence, tuppence, tuppence a bag, feed the birds.
I like birds.
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“but the real main problem between me and most of the species is that they don’t see the way I do.”
–That has ALWAYS been my problem as well. Since I was VERY young, I knew I was “different” from everyone else. I already knew by the time I was in JHS, when everyone, like your statements above- simply conformed and didn’t think beyond their myopic nose. These non-thinking kids grow up to be non-thinking adults. Nothing has changed, other than they grew taller and fatter.
On the one hand, I can’t for the life of me understand WHY bc just don’t frigging THINK. It’s not that hard. But apparently 95% of all Americans do not have a single original thought, that isn’t spoon-fed to them by the MSM, as well as the alternative media. Or social media.
On the other hand, this is done by design- the elites that control our country want it to be this way- the populace to be dumb, obedient lemmings. Bc dissent and free thought is their #1 enemy.
People are SO desperate to be “different” that they’re all doing/saying the SAME things to pretend they’re different. And NONE realize they’re all still lemmings.
And even among outcasts, I’m an outcast among outcasts.
“I can already hear/read Eternaldarkness’ reply “They don’t give two shits how out of touch they are””
–While that is true, the REAL issue is that these ppl don’t even KNOW that they’re lemmings- they have no original thought, and think and feel the way MSM as well as anti-establishment wants them to think. The elites control the establishment narrative as well as the anti-establishment narrative- it’s called controlled opposition.
There is a real serious problem in America where American simply do not know how to think- how to think critically. If you look at other countries and their educational systems, you would see the difference. If you look at the populace of other countries, you would see the difference. Americans are way more lemmings than almost all other nations (aside from places like N Korea where free thought leads to your head being chopped off).
You know what they say, there’s a fine line between genius and insanity. Well, I’m not a genius (only 134 IQ). I’m also not insane but FEELS like this whole fucking world is insane.
It’s like that saying, “It is no measure of health to be well-adjusted to a profoundly sick society.”
Everyone around us is “well-adjusted” and we are the “maladaptive” ones.
Oh I live at the heart of that conflict, where disability meets the system that is supposed to feed the disabled. Well, 40 hours a week right now that’s only 1/3rd of my waking life. Some of my clients are just old or ordinarily poor, so does that make it better? Sometimes, old people can be fun. Kids are fun sometimes.
but I look across the desk, and I realize that they may well be the better adapted.
So I had this guy today, and he was trying to get some extra food for his kid. At least that’s the pitch I got, I knew I wasn’t getting the whole story but the guy had serious charisma. I have to let those sort of things play out.
Anyway we were best friends right up until my supervisor came in and said he couldn’t have the benefits, because of specific circumstances, which I had to agree there were……
And she’s going on about what a hustler that guy was…. and I’m over here like; hell yeah, heck of a good time too. He went on the ride with me, I engaged, what more could anyone ask?
but yeah, even though he struck out today it was a nice try, and I’m not convinced he isn’t better off. He’s not chained to a desk 8 hours a day. Granted, I came home and had a cigar for lunch, not many can do that. I smoked it, I didn’t eat it.
I think I relate strongly to the desire to break systems, find places to slip by…… and so here I am, double agent of chaos and order at the same time.
I need to have my IQ properly measured, because most of the online tests are recreational and not statistically useful. Psychometrics, that is the measurement of human behavior and potential is one of the content areas that stuck with me most in these interim years. IQ testing is a form of psychometrics.
The unofficial number which I think is probably fair is 125. That’s a few informal tests, what I can remember from the tests I had as a child though they’d be out of date.
but it all then devolves into the same thing it always does in psychology, industry politics. History soaked in racism, class warfare and eugenics.
Before I went into the field I thought it was a given that anyone going in would have better intentions. Many of them do at least start out with better intentions, which is nice.
Unfortunately they have a terminal condition of working in the US healthcare system, which breaks most mental healthcare providers. I’d say that a sizeable amount of the economy is jobs making other people miserable, one way or another.
It’s really tough to square being human in such an anti human world. It’ll break pretty much everyone in the end. I don’t think it’ll be a dramatic apocolypse, we’ll just run out of non burnt out people.
Then in the kingdom of the blind, the one eyed man is king.
I used to think IQ mattered. Now, I see that there are stupidly dumb ppl making 250K-500K or more just bc they know how to schmooze and kiss ass. That’s not counting all the grifters in politics or ppl who are CEOs of their mommy and daddy’s companies. Nooooo. There’s TONS of dumb ass ppl making a shit ton of money and living GREAT fucking lives. So does IQ matter? In the realm of things, no. Sadly. -_-
1 to 24: Profound mental disability
25 to 39: Severe mental disability
40 to 54: Moderate mental disability
55 to 69: Mild mental disability
70 to 84: Borderline mental disability
85 to 114: Average intelligence
115 to 129: Above average or bright
130 to 144: Moderately gifted
145 to 159: Highly gifted
160 to 179: Exceptionally gifted
180 and up: Profoundly gifted
–LOL- here I am thinking I was pretty smart. 134 IQ is apparently only “moderately gifted.” Well my range was 128-134 so I am on the border with “above avg or bright” and “moderately gifted.”
I mean, I always knew I was intelligent enough to be outcasted from the other children/adults, but not intelligent enough to be a genius or do anything amazing. Blasted mediocrity!! -_-
I suppose you and I are just “bright eyes” (ref. to Planet of the Apes).
I find it odd how conflicting views can be…
People want comformity but also want people to express individuality, it’s a huge oxymoron.
Living in a world where everyone is the same is boring. I like that we all have different experiences, that we all think so differently. True problem solving relies on that. Society functions on that. We can’t all do everything exceptionally well. We’ll be great at some things and shit at others.
That being said, people like us tend to be so in our heads. I am a lot, I overthink random thoughts and scenarios that don’t make much sense.
Sometimes it’s difficult to articulate what we think into something coherant to the more “average” person.
I work with tech savvy people, and they have to see problems in multiple different ways. They have to look at things differently at times. I’d had someone today tell me flat out that two subnets are clashing and provided them in CIDR notation. I studied that in class, I understood what he meant. Most people wouldn’t.
The truly intelligent people in the world understand that there’s so much more to learn, are willing to listen to contrary viewpoints, are able to absorb and back up the things they say with sensible logic.
It’s a lot to comprehend.