I don’t know, it depends on the situation. I can be completely stone faced at any funeral and cry during some of the best movies. I mostly feel nothing around actual death, but movies can get me. It just varies wildly.
I’ve always aspired to be unemotional, but I fail and become emotional at times and I admit to it.
The thing is that most of the time I am emotional, it’s someone else’s problem. Either it’s because of how someone else I care about is being treated, or how I’m being treated such that I can’t help someone.
So this has led to this pirate like ransom taking behavior I’ve been up to lately. Behave, or walk the plank. I have more hate in my heart than any of these wimps. My hatred for inefficiency and my confinement in proximity of it is so immense, it’s impossible to hide.
So it’s funny when people want to put that to the test, to see if I’ll blink. I’m still in control, and they don’t know whether to be more or less worried.
They made me mad enough and vulnerable enough to show a real emotion in a work setting, amazing alone. However, a death warrant for most. Things have to be pretty awful for men like me to break, a bit of ego on my part though. Maybe I break easy, who knows?
It’s not like we have a basis for comparison. So it’s put up or shut up time for them. I’ve decided to not intentionally sabotage or do anything to them but try and boost them. When they fall, it will be their own weight crushing them.
and I’ll be sad, for all my hatred for their inefficiency and complicity with groups that were not good for the agency…… I’ll be sad. regardless of what happens it feels like, so that’s pretty emotional.
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I don’t know, it depends on the situation. I can be completely stone faced at any funeral and cry during some of the best movies. I mostly feel nothing around actual death, but movies can get me. It just varies wildly.
I’ve always aspired to be unemotional, but I fail and become emotional at times and I admit to it.
The thing is that most of the time I am emotional, it’s someone else’s problem. Either it’s because of how someone else I care about is being treated, or how I’m being treated such that I can’t help someone.
So this has led to this pirate like ransom taking behavior I’ve been up to lately. Behave, or walk the plank. I have more hate in my heart than any of these wimps. My hatred for inefficiency and my confinement in proximity of it is so immense, it’s impossible to hide.
So it’s funny when people want to put that to the test, to see if I’ll blink. I’m still in control, and they don’t know whether to be more or less worried.
They made me mad enough and vulnerable enough to show a real emotion in a work setting, amazing alone. However, a death warrant for most. Things have to be pretty awful for men like me to break, a bit of ego on my part though. Maybe I break easy, who knows?
It’s not like we have a basis for comparison. So it’s put up or shut up time for them. I’ve decided to not intentionally sabotage or do anything to them but try and boost them. When they fall, it will be their own weight crushing them.
and I’ll be sad, for all my hatred for their inefficiency and complicity with groups that were not good for the agency…… I’ll be sad. regardless of what happens it feels like, so that’s pretty emotional.