5 things.

My therapist told me that when i feel like I’m slipping i need to write 5 things that I’m thankful for for that day. So here it is:

1. I’m so thankful for my sobriety. I’m thankful that no matter what I’m going through i never have to judge the severity of it with the type of liquor i buy. Thankful to never drunk drive again. I’m thankful that I never have to disappoint my parents by turning up to the family function acting a fool because I’m drunk and they don’t know it. Thankful that I don’t have it rely on being drunk to be happy.

2. I’m thankful to be able to go to work. I’m thankful to have my job. To wake up in the morning and have an income. Thankful to work with my friends and to get to help people feel beautiful and confident in themselves. I’m thankful to receive the same love from my clients that i give out.

3. I’m thankful for my older brother. Without him today I would’ve went straight into the liquor store. Without him giving me the reality check i needed telling me “you don’t want to be like *our biological father*” i would’ve wrecked my sobriety today. Him showing me the kindness i needed. Telling me you need a notebook so you can write this shit down sis, not knowing that i have this place to talk.

4. I’m thankful for my iPad. Thankful i have this in my purse today. I never have it and today of all days its in my possession.

5. I’m thankful for the peace and quiet that is my car parked in this random parking lot late at night. Thankful to have a chance it calm down in my own silence. Thankful to have be able to cry alone and not in front of people.

6. Honorary mention. I’m thankful to be alive. I never thought in a million years id make it this far. I’m thankful for this life and everyone in it. The little things like waking up in the morning. Seeing the sun rise and fall. Seeing my amazing boyfriend. My parents and siblings. And being able to rest my head at night.