Do Over

I don’t know anymore, because time has shown me I was wrong about so much. I dated girls when I was younger that I thought were rich, for example, and when I was younger I thought “Oh if I had just stuck with dating rich girls I could have hung onto rich daddy’s coat tails and I would have had it made in life”

You know what I found out later in life? Those families weren’t that rich, any more than mine anyway. “Rich” daddy is now dead, and if those rich girls hadn’t of been really smart and gone to school and charted a much better path in life than me, they’d be suffering just as much as I am.

The EXACT same thing goes for picking the wrong career. I thought for a long time I would have done better in engineering. But I know people in engineering, it’s not looking any better for them in this economy either. There AREN’T any good careers, it’s about attaching yourself to the right people, the right companies, and I don’t know where you learn that, no one I’ve ever met has figured that out.

The only solid regret I have is marrying my ex wife, she was a mistake, we spent something like $10,000 on the wedding alone and for what? for her to fuck someone else and run out on me. She didn’t love me, she loved the idea of who she could turn me into.

I mean at least she’s getting a happy ending, she’s got three kids with some other man now, she’s got her grad degree and a career, life works out great for awful people. She even got out of Oklahoma, everything I wanted, she got.

Yet she has the gall to demand money from the sale of my house that I’ve been stuck in for 17 years because she didn’t have the guts to stick around and be responsible, to live with the consequences of her actions. *****.

I hope there’s a special place in hell for people like her because I can’t believe that she’ll never face a hint of accountability for running out on everything she promised to do.