Id like to die by suicide, and even if I didnt have problems, I’d still want this to be the case. I want to have control over my own death, and not wait until Im old and too poor to pay for Healthcare, you know? It doesn’t have to be a depressive “woe is me” type of deal. Like, I just want the control. There’s something comforting about choosing to leave on my own terms. Its sort of like volunteering to go first when class presentation day has arrived. You deliberately choose to face the scary part bc it mitigated the elements that make it scary in the first place: the unknown, the what ifs.