Inquiries into a rapid death

I’d like any information possible on how to achieve a relatively quick and painless death via suicide. I don’t need anyone to come to my defense wherein they try to talk me out of my decisions; unfortunately I’ve already made my choice and regardless of information here I’ll rig some sort of PC up at home with spare parts or frankly use a public computer in order to access a tor based website that will hopefully provide resources. If anyone can leave an email and would be alright with questions on how to go about my death I’d be much appreciative. I’ve been debating exit through helium-bag, but the dubious claims on results make me worried. I don’t want to risk another failed attempt. Unfortunately I don’t own a gun, and whike I may attempt to acquire one for my own sake the results of a gun-based suicide are their own can of worms.

For reference, I am a legal adult. Im ablut to hit 23, and while young to most people, I’ve had ever-quite the stretch of life. I’d like to make this happen ASAP, preferabky within the next 1-2 weeks if possible. I’m too tired to continue on, and after finding myself in another abusive relationship, I’d just like to bring myself peace and calm that I can’t deem to find within this world.

Not to be melodramatic, but with the times both political and economical, there’s no hope in achieving my dreams. If I can die on my own terms within my own home before I get shipped off to a backwater place and die alone in the sand of a desert not my own, Id much rather do so. Id prefer that the rivers of my homeland and the earth beside them recieve my body as opposed to something not my own. Perhaps if I was born 20 years into the past or the future, I’d be able to secure something real and meaningful for myself, but everyone has a time and a place.

Im a christian, but my views on God are definitely unorthodox. I personally do believe that some folks are not meant to make it, and God calls for us all in different ways at different times. I’m certain this is His plan for me, and he’s growing angered that I haven’t accepted my calling. I believe that if I succeed in my efforts, something more might await me. I don’t believe a loving God would call so hard for me only to send me to hell, and I hope Im right.

Thank you anyone who leaves kind words and detailed instructions, via comment or email.

Have a good day and bless everyones soul that may be struggling so that they either find peace in life, or peace in death.

-Hopeful Inquiries.