Javier’s demise, hopefully my time to cry in the darkness, and also the day I do nothing at all except groan and whine in my bed, not getting up for anything…
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I was using my alarmclock on my iPhone and it said kill yourself at 5:57 am from 1-3 years ago and then 6:13am do it for Nycolle… You know you still love her…
I should have done it. Still not over her, still not over my depression. Still shrouded in the darkness, not to scythe darkness is a bad thing but while at the edge I am close to falling. Especially a willing walk forward to the edge.
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I hope my end is really soon rather than this being a rant. I don’t deserve to suffer this cruel and unusual punishment. It’s not worth the waiting and pain. I need to end it all soon. Not a rant, but rather a warning that my end is near. Feedback is great, but not necessary. I might fall asleep after choking for a while and reading ghost stories… Maybe… I might haunt you all… 12:00-4:00A.M. Is my insane hours…
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@Rogue, please, Nathan, I know that time has passed sense you posted this…if you do it, don’t do it for her. Please. You have no idea what that would mean to me. If you killed yourself for her. It is selfish of me to say this, I know and I’m sorry for that.