I’m surprised I’m still here if I’m honest. Things haven’t exactly worked out very well, though reading some of these posts mine seems almost stupid..
I have some mental disorders, not yet diagnosed and after a year with no help and being disowned by my friends and family, i can no longer cope with it all.
Now, let me explain why they all disowned me, I see and hear things that are not there, I constantly fight with the voices and the drumming in my head, I cannot control what I do or say because someone controls me, I named him John, he hurts me and says nasty things to me every minute of every day, he tells me that I am worthless and I should die. My family do not understand, they think its just hormones or something, and as for my friends, well John lies to them alot, they can’t trust me anymore, and for the ones who did trust me, they found out what was wrong with me and soon ditched me from their lives.
My best friends were at risk, I wanted them safe but John wanted them dead, so I had to stay away from them to protect them, and that is how I became alone in this world, and as you can imagine, its not nice. I soon gave up with my life and I am waiting for the right time to go, maybe some people will miss me, most probably won’t but I dont care, because nothing compares to what is going on in my head, the sooner its over, the better.
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Please, what you suffer is not stupid. Hairspray is stupid – this is not. If these voices are in your head then they are there because there’s a stronger world inside your mind. And because of that you can survive. Unfortunately, I’m not sure how bad it is – and I can’t even begin to imagine how you must feel – but if you need to talk about it don’t be afraid to email me. I can tell you that something good’ll come out of telling someone all about it – and if your family and friends won’t listen then I will.
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– Hairspray is very stupid
Hello,
The first thing you should do is, find out who your local doctor is. Refer to him what you are telling us. Dont think that you are a mistery or that you are unique and nobody would understand what is going on. There are some 10 tons of books who have dealt with it. If it is esquizofrenia, as it sound, it can perfectly be treated and improved to a degree where it is not an issue anymore.
Certainly my friend, what you should not do, is stay without help, hanging around with people who dont understand anything about medicine because they will logically be confused. Dont feel mad at them. They are just ordinary people not prepared to understand that. I have a friend who married a girl with schizofrenia. He was a doctor. So, no worries at all. It is clear that you are a good natured girl with maybe some temporary annoyance in hour head but that can be treated.
Let us know how you are doing, what the doctor told you and what they said you are to do in the short term.
best friendly greetings for you
I have seen around 200 patients with esquizophrenia in the last 3 years and all of them nice people.
Thanks for the advice, but ive been to the doctors, and they did nothing, the health system in England is bad, the school are ment to be doing something about it, but from what i can see, their not.
rampside girl, I live in England. and I work in the NHS 🙂
Ahh okay then, well I did go to the doctors, and they sent me to some woman, who worked at my school, who after 3 weeks said she could not help me so she referred me to some mental health place for teenagers. They sent me a questionnaire through the post, they told me to fill it in and send it back and they will help, that was over 6 months ago and still no news.