let me tell you frankly, i want to die because i’m in pain or i’m not able to cop with the amount of pain. You may think my reason for suicide is just not enough or fair enough to do this.
But I feel like i’m done with my life. Now if i live more, i cannot make anyone happy.
If i live more the people who loves me will hate me eventually. And I broke up with my girlfriend. And believe me this is not the reason. Even before meeting her, I had a feeling for commitng suicide. But till now i could nt do it, just because 3 thoughts,what my parents will do if i die(I do love them very much), And I have strong spiritual relegious background. suicide is a sin, second reason. Now the third reason, I dont know which way i shoud commit suicide. I dont want to feel the pain. So one good option is Sleeping pills but if someone catches me or if i went to comma stage. Oh shit i cnt even think about my parents situation if something like this happens.
Now the reasons for me to think about suicide:
I have no aim or desire.
Nobody except for my parents cares for me. But I’m away from my parents also. So I’m all alone. Also I am a little bit of reserved type. Its not easy for me to get along with people.
I have no girlfriend
I have no degree
I have no carrier ambition(but i hv a good paying job because of my computer skills)
i want to know what happens next, i mean ater this life.
And the last reason is a question, Why should I live.
So anybody have comments on my problems., as i said My problems may not be a big deal or you may not find this reason enough for committing suicide. But if you are looking that point of view, I ll have to say fuck off, your problem also will have a solution.. 🙁 x-(
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you have alot to live for.
I am 28 years old and i can easily say i have not felt loved by my parents ever. My dad lives about three miles away and never calls me or visits. My dad beat me as a child and was drunk everyday. even after i was molested by someone, my dad was never there to help or comfort me.
My dad and mom divorced and my mom ditched out on me and my brother for weeks on end. the only time that she would come home was to drop off a stack of frozen pizzas and then she was gone.
your parents love you and thats something that i would love to have in my life. you have a good job and that is way more than i can say. i am jobless with no degree, i have a daughter that i cant easily provide for, and i live in a tiny one bedroom apartment with no luxuries.
i am also reserved by nature and have no friends.
The only thing that i cling to is that God has a plan for my life that has not been revealed yet, but it will come. the same goes for you too. The reason that god wants us to live is so we can see who he made us to be.
if for anything stay around because you know that there is someone in the world who can relate to you and that someone who is not your parents that cares. I know it may not seem like much but i will be praying that you can live life happily knowing that you are not alone.
i know that, it happens at all for me.
i think, no-one can really %100 understant we.
also i know asm, C++, C#, and all (php, asp, and some java), i can change program structure, i can make cracks, i can make hacks, bot for games.
The teachers always teacs, we always study ..
Persons walking, talking about lied topics (love, magazine, or other shits).
World or live is all fake !, i think that.
i think all things nothing.
but .. when we died, mother or father? pretents will beat with teachers (or talk, my mother will cry, and most important is teachers will have pain because mother can be say stupid things like that “my child died because of you”).. and they can be try suicide after me.. (really, my pretents is not important but when teachers gone?, when teacher (or someone really don’t know you or didn’t do anything to you) cry?).
we have live bro, we just can cry (when alone), cry is giving hope to me.
I don’t have girlfriend too, but i just want to see a girl, and i always cry (with think that girl).
please add me to my msn (webmaster@buraktamturk.com), i wanna talk.. and we may have same problem, can’t we found a solution (included suicide :()? i am really need that.
lvd ur comment mrd, thx for this. nw i gt a relief.. 😀