Today one of my best friends looked at me, “Sierra, I know you starve.. I know you hurt. People are going to make you better though. aren’t you scared you are damaging your body?? Aren’t you afraid you are killing yourself???” I just looked at her… she paused and then started talking again “at least i HOPE you don’t want to die… if you do, it would be news to me..” I gave her a reassuring smile… but I wanted to burst into tears. The one thing I have never, will never, admit to anyone, is how badly i wish to die. She doesn’t know that I hold on for her and my other friends because they are who get me through my days. She doesn’t know that I am choosing to keep my life because I know how it will affect her and other people. I am trying so hard to want to live. I am trying to focus on all the little things that make me happy. I am trying to not lose myself completely. I’m only 16 years old. I’m too young to die. Too young to see no point in living. I feel like that by staying alive all I’m doing is constantly hurting and upsetting people… but if I die then I will also hurt people… I don’t want to hurt the people I love. But either way, they end up hurt.
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Your friend WANTS to help you. She’s a good friend. So let her help you, and talk to her, that’s the best gift you can give a friend, your trust.
mysmilecoversalot 🙂 don’t ever let a friend who is actually willing to help you ju
mysmilecoversalot 🙂 there are a lot of ppl out there who are suicidal even me and im only
13 well anywho you are not alone and if i where you i would get help before its to late
and before your suicidal thoughts get worse.See i made that same mistake 1 yr ago i could of gotten help when i started to feel all suicidal but me being the ignorant person decided that i didn’t need any help and that i was perfectly fine.Well enough of my life
you probably don’t want to know about my life.anyways don’t ever let a friend who is actually willing to help you just slip ouy of your life.You see not a lot of people are lucky enough to a friend that they can just go and talk there problems to.
It’s hard. I know it is. Like Chance, I should’ve got help, but I told myself I was fine an that I was being a baby, and I didn’t get help. That’s probably one of the stupidest things I’ve ever said to myself and probably the stupidest offer I’ve turned down. Never turn down help. Trust me. Even if it’s just having a friend who will stay up with you all night and talk, it makes a difference. I promise. If you want, I’m 15 years old, you can email me at farmerstrong15@hotmail.com. I’d love to talk to you.
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Same gurl, same. I’m currently at second day of my path to death. So I’m 15 and the best way to die I think it would a self starvation up to 30 days till I die finally. I can’t think about more serious suicide method at 15.