What part of the day, night or weekend do you fear or hate the most? …for me its the first part of the night because I don’t sleep and my mind spins out of control
Broke, no job, eviction, no friends, no family, recovering from really bad car crash, stuck in bed, type with one hand only, besides that – all is great
mhmm i fear everynight because i think wayyyyy toooo much about things ive done that i dislike… so ive got my remedy but now i have to take that everytime i want to sleep great? its called mind controling substances -_-
Here’s a remedy that I used to take. A lot of nyquil and vodka. Kills the senses…shuts up the mind…and feels kinda good. Except now…I would feel shittier if I did that…so here I am just trying to kill time. I’m probably going to just pass out again without noticing. That’s literally the only way I can get to sleep. But even in sleep…every night is full of nightmares in nightmares. Here’s a little description: think of inception except all the stages of the dreams are all nightmares. So…I think I wake up… but it’s just another nightmare…then it happens a lot of times until I finally wake up exhausted. It feels so real and sucks.
well…I just googled speed and nyquil…hallucination? lol unless you like that? All I know is that to weaken the effects of speed you should drink a “little” bit (I emphasize the little bit). Sorry I couldn’t help you out…but I don’t want to mess you up. But if you get the chance take nyquil, vodka, muscle relaxers and you are set. I just didn’t mention the prescription drugs because most people don’t have access to that.
btw ctb driver…I am also broke. Negatives in my bank account :). Last resort I would recommend is calling out to any gang affiliatives etc. (you get the point). BUT you could get into deeper shit if you meet the wrong people which is MOST likely. Sometimes…you just have to think outside the box (even if sometimes it’s not legal). I am not endorsing any kind of illegitimate activity however.
loll thankss i like halucinations its better than just being speeded as fuck? 😛 wrong thing is i dont have nyquil so i guess ill just have to read and write on this site and listen to clint eastwood form the gorillaz
Yay? Listen to “when you believe” by Mariah Carey and Whitney Houston. Let me know what you think…I think they have the most beautiful voices I’ve ever heard.
yes 😛 just like somepeople might think justin bieber has a nice voice we all have different points of view and music is the way to express our selves so yes i do believe they have the most beautiful voice 😛
ctb-driver S, Yes sleep is so easy for some people not for me. All the distractions and tangental connections with others slip away and in the darkness I am enveloped in isolation with questions too big for my mind…mind blowing but instead of blowing up my brain fills with thoughts that tick away like a time bomb. Wanting to blow my brains out really just means I want my mind to shut up.
Reading a lot of posts here I am getting some of us, maybe all or most, are not good at pausing when our wheels are spinning in mud.
Sleeping with someone (not talking sex even) is so comforting but not an option for me right now.
magnesium, calcium (from sea weed), a pet (my dog died last summer 🙁 ), telling the worries to go to he!!, letting go and letting God (whom I do not believe in even slightly) – but just think of it as all that is bigger than me which is nearly everything. Sometimes drugs help if I am careful. I used to exercise to deal with kickback anxiety from when they wore off but too depressed and live in one he!! of a dangerous neighborhood – love nature but it is suffocated or dead here for the most part. Sleep aids really can lead to depression or make it worse.
tea decreases cortisol (stress hormone) but coffee can help with depression, so i stay away from coffee after 1 pm.
hope you got some zzzzzzs
And I don’t know what country you are in but I wish we had better social saftey net in this country for mental illness or just good old fashioned need for community support which is often tagged as mental illness.
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Yea…I can’t sleep either for reasons probably similar to yours. What you’re story?
Broke, no job, eviction, no friends, no family, recovering from really bad car crash, stuck in bed, type with one hand only, besides that – all is great
mhmm i fear everynight because i think wayyyyy toooo much about things ive done that i dislike… so ive got my remedy but now i have to take that everytime i want to sleep great? its called mind controling substances -_-
Here’s a remedy that I used to take. A lot of nyquil and vodka. Kills the senses…shuts up the mind…and feels kinda good. Except now…I would feel shittier if I did that…so here I am just trying to kill time. I’m probably going to just pass out again without noticing. That’s literally the only way I can get to sleep. But even in sleep…every night is full of nightmares in nightmares. Here’s a little description: think of inception except all the stages of the dreams are all nightmares. So…I think I wake up… but it’s just another nightmare…then it happens a lot of times until I finally wake up exhausted. It feels so real and sucks.
mhmm do you think your remedy will work if im on speed? x)
well…I just googled speed and nyquil…hallucination? lol unless you like that? All I know is that to weaken the effects of speed you should drink a “little” bit (I emphasize the little bit). Sorry I couldn’t help you out…but I don’t want to mess you up. But if you get the chance take nyquil, vodka, muscle relaxers and you are set. I just didn’t mention the prescription drugs because most people don’t have access to that.
btw ctb driver…I am also broke. Negatives in my bank account :). Last resort I would recommend is calling out to any gang affiliatives etc. (you get the point). BUT you could get into deeper shit if you meet the wrong people which is MOST likely. Sometimes…you just have to think outside the box (even if sometimes it’s not legal). I am not endorsing any kind of illegitimate activity however.
I also want to say that I have not done this as of yet. Just some ideas
loll thankss i like halucinations its better than just being speeded as fuck? 😛 wrong thing is i dont have nyquil so i guess ill just have to read and write on this site and listen to clint eastwood form the gorillaz
Yay? Listen to “when you believe” by Mariah Carey and Whitney Houston. Let me know what you think…I think they have the most beautiful voices I’ve ever heard.
yes 😛 just like somepeople might think justin bieber has a nice voice we all have different points of view and music is the way to express our selves so yes i do believe they have the most beautiful voice 😛
wowww sorry mysreadd your postt XD gimme a sec going to listen to your song XD
not really my king of music butt a good voicee 🙂
ctb-driver S, Yes sleep is so easy for some people not for me. All the distractions and tangental connections with others slip away and in the darkness I am enveloped in isolation with questions too big for my mind…mind blowing but instead of blowing up my brain fills with thoughts that tick away like a time bomb. Wanting to blow my brains out really just means I want my mind to shut up.
Reading a lot of posts here I am getting some of us, maybe all or most, are not good at pausing when our wheels are spinning in mud.
Sleeping with someone (not talking sex even) is so comforting but not an option for me right now.
magnesium, calcium (from sea weed), a pet (my dog died last summer 🙁 ), telling the worries to go to he!!, letting go and letting God (whom I do not believe in even slightly) – but just think of it as all that is bigger than me which is nearly everything. Sometimes drugs help if I am careful. I used to exercise to deal with kickback anxiety from when they wore off but too depressed and live in one he!! of a dangerous neighborhood – love nature but it is suffocated or dead here for the most part. Sleep aids really can lead to depression or make it worse.
tea decreases cortisol (stress hormone) but coffee can help with depression, so i stay away from coffee after 1 pm.
hope you got some zzzzzzs
And I don’t know what country you are in but I wish we had better social saftey net in this country for mental illness or just good old fashioned need for community support which is often tagged as mental illness.