I’ve had enough of trying.. Every day again i walk into class smiling everyone who knows me thinks im a very happy little girl. Well, the thruth is i am not. I’ve had trouble all my life. At home they always yell, always. On school i recently broke up with my best friends and now everyone can go to hell im not trying anymore. Everything has gone wrong in my life.. My only hobbies are reading and gaming thats about all i do these days even in class.. Im playing with my phone behind the books. I just hate the feeling that im hated and not wanted. I don’t belong here, this world, this place. Its burning me down everytime i smile and say im’okay’ everytime i don’t go to school because of this… If i’d get my hands on a gun, i’d pull the triger.
These might actually be the last things i’ll say before i dissapear.
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Don’t kill yourself! give life another try!! try running away! explore the world! then tell me how you feel!
If no one loves you…….then Jesus loves you and will always be there for you if you want to talk here is my email rccarlitos@aol.com
Hi!!! You don’t say how old your are although I am guessing between 12-15. Life itself is very challenging. It will be until you are an old lady. But just know that there will be people who will like you and people who will not like you. You sound like a very nice and very likeable girl. As you grow older you will understand that if people don’t like you, WHO CARES. As long as YOU like/love YOU and you have your family and just 1-2-3 GREAT friends, and you have your health, a good education, and can enjoy simple things in life THOSE THINGS are THE most important. You will understand as you mature. Just KNOW, you sound like a very sweet girl and if others don’t like you, who cares. If you have an older person, preferably a woman, who YOU LIKE & RESPECT, talk to her about your concerns. AND if you can get involved with some activity, yoga, karate, volleyball, softball, track, etc……….do it, that will help also. I hope what I have suggested helps you in some way. But ALWAYS KNOW—–YOU ARE A GREAT PERSON!!! YOU HAVE ALOT TO OFFER THIS WORLD!! Take good care. You are in my heart. Jen 🙂
Don’t do it. your old friends and your parents. how would they feel if you died. if you try and work hard you will be better than all who put you down. think about it. their are people whom ive seen that have only enogh money to eat just rice. you have food, clothes, parents, education . don’t give it all up. there are people who can love you and care for you. you just have to see it.
im going to say dont do it, im not saying that isnt shit or anything, i just thought you might want someone to tell you they dont want you to do it.
gosh! i wish i were a child and my biggest problems were that my class mates dont like me. Oh shit, i wish i had the problems of the children.
I think you can have new and better friends at a new phase of your life.
You seem to be too young. You would never be able to kill yourself, unless if you had the courage to take a knife and cut deeply your scrag, your neck.
Most of the suicide persons don’t have this guts. I don’t.
When you grow up a little more, i bet you will find better friends.
And the books… when a person knows how to enjoy the books, they can be great friends.
I like writing. My writes are like friends to me. When i write, i seem to be listened, and i think that someone will like me, reading me.
But i still wanna die. But im older than you. And i suffered a lot of things you wouldn’t believe.
Who has a gun to pull the triger is a happy person.
I will try the ropes, and hanging.
Don’t try to OD. Most persons fail. It has to be pretty well planned.
Hey there,
I know how tough school can be. I know what some ‘friends’ can be like. Personally, I’ve been backstabbed God knows how many times.
If you want to talk about anything.. Maybe explain how you’re feeling and why.. You can email me at: lindsaybgilbert@msn.com. 🙂 Don’t give up!