everyone is turning on me. im ALWAYS the one to be let down , everone whispers and talks about me and says things to my face or around me in class . My dad doesnt care and tells me to shake it off, i dont want to go to my mom beasue she is never home . my friends are hanging out with the people that make me cry and i am left alone. i cry everytime i think of my ex bestfriend who dumped me for another friend and also my aunt who died beacause she gave up on herself. and the one person i thought would NEVER leave, left. comment to save me
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ALWAYS? Perhaps too much right now and there is no such thing as always. As Bob Dylan wrote: “If tomorrow wasn’t such a long time then loneliness would mean nothing to me at all.”
Takes a village to raise or save a child or an inner child (that part of us inside that is forever young). A post will only save you for a second or two, if that. String together survivable moments and walk across the bridge they make.
Perhaps your moms not around cause she also has a hard time with your dad shaking things off all the time or perhaps he shakes things off all the time cause he feels lost and overwhelmed. Try giving a bunch of hugs to your dad and mom just because you’ll feel better not because they understand.
Look for love, keep looking, keep gardening…rest then plant rest then plant…its all we can do far as I know.
Maybe those kids at school are just testing you…perhaps they see your fear or sadness and want to poke at you to see what you’ll do… a weird way of experimenting externally with what to do with their own feelings by seeing what you’ll do but without them having to be brave enough to admit to their feelings. Or maybe they are just acting like jerks..find what you love..is there something you did with your aunt that you can now do alone? Find people who believe in themselves too cause those who don’t will leave no matter how much they love you…
its hard to look for love but i will keep doing itt. and it just seems like im the one who gets talked about.and i want to be saved from the horrible feelings , i need extra support and strength.
those horrible feelings are sounding bigger than likely anyone is saying about you. Howe bad could it be? What is your biggest fear? What do you love in life itself no matter who says what about it?
next week someone else will be talked about. just like the hollywood tabloids. here today gone tomorrow and all that remains is how we’ve used our time meanwhile.
speaking of which I got to get out there and try and try and try some more out there in the non virtual world…gots to go make some mistakes trying to do better…
im no athlete but I heard a coach tell a team after they lost to ‘hold the burn’ ..he was talking about the pain and anger and fear of having lost. Holding it rather than trying to drowned it, or cut it out, or suffocate it…hold it learn from it, treat it with care and respect…that is what I’ll try to do today..or maybe I’ll just freak out, melt down and …naw not today.
the one thing I can do to forget about all the nasty looks nasty words and horrible actions is playing soccer. When i play the only thing that matters is me, no one else, just me. thats the only time im not onstantly looking over my shoulder. i know i should be with friends and you should be too but i can wait, ive made enough mistakes this week!I get what your saying to, about the here today and gone tomorrow.Songs really help me through these dramatic times, do you know any goood ones???
Good depends in what you like.. I’m out and about today so not much time but how about checking out sound tracks to soccer movies and see if any of those work for you.
Bend it Like Beckham has a song independence day and a song Inner Smile…when you find a song close your eyes and imagine moving thru your day like a soccer game.
Otherwise tell me what sort of music you like and I (& likely other posters may have some ideas in days to come)
So great you have some passion for something active and team oriented. You are on the right track (or field in this case)
We have to try different relationships until we find the right fit… Like finding what position you play on the soccer team…
You are one smart person! thanks a lot it really helped(: I’ll remember , soccer game!(: and I like pop , country and like stuff like Coldplay