I dont know why i started cutting. But now i do it because i hate myself. I just want to know why i am so depressed. For no reason ill start to feel an intense sadness, and somtimes might start day dreaming about suicide or cutting. what the fuk is wrong with me??? half the time i want to kill my self so badly and the other half im wondering what made me think of somthing like that in the first place. its fuked up. why do i keep thinking about it and trying to do it if i always stop at the last second or just not do it, only to go through the same thing the next day. My family tries to help (except for my sister who still hasnt figured it out and wont shut up about suicide for som reason) but i just end up acting just as bitchy as my sis does. Ive tried writing about it. ive written numerous poem and storied and have even started a book just to see if it would help. But nothing works. What is wrong with me? Im so fukin conflicted!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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don’t be upset, please, and please don’t cuss.
believe me please, a book? poems? any writing at all, any such coping methods…they’re no good. you may look at someone or think of the person next to you, and think that you could be happy being them…but you can’t be happy because of the way things are around you, only within you. things around you never stay the same – so you’ll be sad. it’s life. it’s life and then you die. do you want this? there IS another option… you’ve surely heard of it… it’s called eternal life, but it’s misunderstood, it’s missed entirely, people just don’t get it. but why do you hate yourself? everybody else misses it because they love themselves… but maybe you’d understand because you’re not in love with your self. life isn’t about the self anyway.
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i would really love to talk to you, and do whatever i can do for you, please?
thank you for reading… please take care of yourself
There isn’t always a reason, at least not one that stands out.
The truth of it is, is that you have a chemical imbalance in your brain.
You need to talk to your parents, a teacher someone you trust about how you are feeling. The best thing you can do for yourself is find help, demand it if that’s what you need to do, but something has to change all this self-destructive behaviour is extremely damaging.
Though cutting might be a punishment to yourself, a relief of some sort to help you cope with your emotions. It is very unhealthy.
You need to research, talk to people to try and understand your feelings.
There is more to a disease then just it’s symptoms.
Might I suggest next time you feel like cutting, hop in the shower first put it on as hot as you can handle, leave it like that for 10 seconds then put it on as cold as you can handle for 10 seconds. Do this five times. It will release endorphins in your body and will make you feel relaxed and content.
look, i cut too. i know why i do it. i do it to feel pain, like im not numb. i feel stupid for doing it, but i do. i try hard sometimes not to do it, but i always cave…you are lucky, your family is there(even not counting the sister) i have no one. but my self. i have some ideas that could help you. contact To Write Love On HerArms(TWLOHA) they are a great help!! read their stories. they helped me, even though i still do it. you can email me one on one if you wouold like, dance.cassie.dance@hotmail.com i will reply. i promise. but, i wont push my beliefs or religion on you. but i will try my best to help.
I cut too. I feel sick, and I wonder what’s wrong with me as well. I do it so that I can feel something, anything but pain and hurt. It’s also fascinating to watch the blood trail down my wrist.
I have read that if you place an ice-cube on your wrist it will stop these urges, I have yet to try this idea.
People say to talk to counselors, to talk to parents. I hope you have the courage to do it. I wish I did. I’m pretty sure it is addicting because it releases something in your brain (Sorry for not knowing exactly what) and it calms people down and it can get people hooked on this feeling. You can talk to me at darkshadewolf@gmail.com. We can talk about it if you like. :] (somehow a smiley face on this website looks odd).
Hi i just remembered you Georgiana we have talked today abt yourself u r just amazing at writing .I can now feel your feelings. Reply me its Vikrant (your omegle friend)
?????? I don’t know a vikrant.
And thanks to everyone else. I stopped when my parents found out because I was just plainly in shock. Now I suffer from occasional relapses or I might make an attempt for my life. But i can’t even do that right. I am just that pathetic.