Alright well to start off I haven’t always been unhappy. Actually until about a year ago everything in my life was fine. I had a girlfriend i was madly in love with for 6years, had my health, and everything else was fine. Then everything turned once i found out my gf had cheated on me with this other kid. When i confronted her she left me for him like 6 years of our lives together was nothing to her. then nine days after that i was diagnosed with chrones disease. Over the last year i’ve been battleing with it trying to get it under control and it seems everything i try nothing works. I now presently take 20 pills a day of a variety of medicine, some thats main purpose is to destroy my immune system (chrones is when your white blood cells attack your intestines). I’m always feeling sick, tired, worn out, and constantly depressed. the medication i’m on now is barely working and my next choices are to have a blood infusion ever couple of weeks to replace the white blood cells that my body’s making that’s attacking me or to have a surgery and basically shit and piss in a bag my whole life. I used to cut my self ALOT nad have greatly ‘cut’ down on it, while it helps for the now i often become greatly embarrassed of it later when ppl see an arm full of scars. I’ve tried many times to get my EX back even begged her at times and it only makes things worse for me. I’ve tried to talk adn meet other grils, but after 6 yrs is hard for me to just stop wanting that special person in my life. I’ve realized by now im extremely pathetic and if i owned a gun could guarantee i wouldn’t be here any more. To be honest im not exactly sure why im writing this other then to get a lot of this off my chest, i just wish life wasn’t this hard and lonely.
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Hi,
Am really sorry for you, sorry to hear about your situation, which really sounds like it sucks. And I thought I had problems…
But I really don’t think you are pathetic. The way you write about it is very straight and to the point with no self-pity. Hope you find some way of getting reprieve, of getting some happiness out of life.
You might be lucky, some form of treatment might be developed. Maybe you can even take part in research on your illness. And maybe you’ll come across a girl someday who you love, and who treats you right as well. It happened to me a while ago, and I would NEVER have expected it. Nothing in life is guaranteed, but ya never know what’s round the next corner…
You’re welcome to write me at muspelhem@hotmail.com if u feel like it.
Best wishes 😉
Its always hard to lose the one person u love. I’m going thru it right now, so I know how u feel. It hurts so bad that it feels like that feeling will kill u anyway. I’m learning to take it day by day, there’s days that it is harder than others but I try to think at least I gotten thru this day than the nxt. Its not ur lose its hers, instead of tryn to get her back show her what she is missing, pull urself up and show this girl that she made a huge mistake letting u go. Some girls dnt realize what they have until they actually lost it. Your battling a health issue right now and that is more proirity that this girl. I know its easier to say than to do but u need to help urself first before anything else.I now u must feel worn out and feel like giving up but dnt. U going to be fine. U need to be strong and keep moving forward, that’s the only way u will be able to get thu this. Keep positive about ur health,lean on someone else for support. Concentrate on U..
my love left me too.
don’t let the cruel world or stupid nature get you down – the world’s a mess and nature is corrupt, so that’s all to come naturally. what would be really good for you to is figure out how to cope with living in this world though, but try not to live of the world or you’ll die with it.
will you please talk to me? i really can help you if you’ll let me. my contact info is at skull09.net
thank you for reading.. take care please