well the thing is i just got out of prison i have been out 4 months and already am ready to go back life on the streets is way harder than life behind bars and in my situation even my family members do me wrong and i have tryed to commet suicide about 9 times i have hung my self lit my self on fire slit my throat slit both my wrist and the right way not the wrong one and i am at the point now were if they don’t send me back to prison i am just going to kill my self and now i know the best way to do just pull the fucking trigger and bam your no more a face to be forgotten i just can’t handle my life no more i am on all kinds of phyco meds and they don’t work i just want to leave i want to take a never ending sleep see its ethere i kill my self or someone else and i choose option a which is to kill my self people just don’t relize wat i go threw but im going to bed so if you see bryan hollis in the papers for killing someone or my self remeber wat i wrote it aint worth it but i’m all fucked up in da head thats why they call me loco G but i hope you get some thing out of this peace
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Well. I can say, you write and express your feelings. You can sit down, log on and express yourself, and also communicate. That sounds pretty normal. It seems that what you need is to be able to make it into the labour market once, for a start, whatever a job. I am pretty sure you would regard yourself and things in a completely different way. Once you get started, you leave the rest behind. Now you are through the hardest part, coming out from one place and having to get in into another. Yes, getting a job is hard for everybody, but also, if you are more motivated than others to get it, you can make it easier. I would try to focus exclusively in getting a job. Then, also, those who you say treat you not well, would be the first surprised. There is a book that an exconvict wrote. His nick was Papillon. He was a French convict, Henry Charriere. He scaped from jail around 12 times, blowed away the walls of prison, jumped from 9 meters (30 feet) high walls, etc until he finally run away and they did not get him. He was sent to the French Guyana, scaped making a simple “boat” with wood logs he stole from prison, etc. Read that book, apart from incredible interesting stories, the point that you are going to get is that motivation in that individual made him achieve things that other people, more standard, would not make the efforts for. Finally he scaped to Venezuela, and built his own harem of women, etc.
men your story really sucks… yes u right its toughf!
i tried to kill my self … woke up in hospital and promest my self never ever again i will try pills, shot gun is the best…
thou every time when i think of doing it… just imagening of it.. gives me relief.. for a second there… if i imagen im dead already… i free my self… than that person i hate the most- my self – doesnt exist anymore. .. its dead… just body left with enegry and power to do things… thats how i get thru days.. i imagen im dead .. and this body have nothing to do with me, that personality that always gets me in trouble is gone… and than i deside what i could do with this life if i was given a second chance-life, face, and a personality… and i do it. .. i kill my self inside every day and every day i get reborn….
u dont actually need to kill your self- your body.
just in your mind bury the person gives u troble… kill him, erease him from your life… like never happend ..and learn to live with new your self
u are ok, now u are o felony, but in history of world… thats nothing… its just a goverment sistem… to control us all…. forget it ever happend , change the name , change the neighbourhood- personaly me im going to mexico or costa rica or s. america.. or india… anywhere far far away from me.
people will tell u that u wont escape from your self, where ever u go , u take yourself with u….
but i will try, try really hard a new generation of suicidalss.. i kill only part of me, the one thats giving me trouble, me , my self and i – thouse ¨people¨are dead to me.
and also u must know, when u change place, just move to any other country, work in a bar , in a beach anything that will keep yor head busy and that u could enjoy…. i promess a love will find its way to your heart and u will see life in all new colors
all the best
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notnormal girl
You know what i say?Hell with the world. If people are trying to kill themselves while other people dont have the choice whether to die or not because they are killed or die of disease or some other horrible thing. Thats what i think hell with the world try helping someone else who could die and get yourself out of the shithole your in anc maybe just try and live.