my cutts my pain. no one notices. no one cares. thats good. but its like a disease.. its spreading. and its an addiction.
my friend could carelesss. her new friend .. gives me dirty looks. sorry for speaking my mind? i like to speak my mind.. even when i should keep things to myself. but this is wat bullying did to me.. im now me. because of those kids.. im mean. and sentimental. i like being mean. it gives me power.  im always smiling and laughing. but inside… inside WE ARE ALL DYING… i cant sleep sometimes. i go to sleep crying. i dnt believe in psychiatrics…. i want people to CHANGE. i want to change but its hard. …
my past will always follow me… why is the world like this? so.. if i had the perfect body and face.. i wouldnt have been bullied…. i wouldnt say im ugly. im just average but im weird… idk. Â people just dont like me but dats okay.. its okay. becuz in the end we die alone. .. alone…. forever.. <3
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I understand what it’s like to become jaded after being worn down… I know that I’m a lot more uptight than I used to be. Not toooo long ago, I was pretty casual… Life experiences can wear you down a bit. But life isn’t perfect… and we’re a product of our experiences. If something is resulting in us not succeeding, we learn from it… and we change our behavior… because we associate an action with a consequence. But I wouldn’t consider it entirely a negative. Learning helps you move forward. You’re definitely NOT ugly… regardless of what anybody says. Ultimately, you’re in charge of yourself… and you must look out for yourself. You may be alone right now, but there are other chapters in life… some in which you’ll be less lonely.