I feel like I’m living by myself, no one seems to understand this pain I feel. Sitting here with a blade in hand wanting “my fix”. All I want is this pain to go away. I wanna be happy, like I fake all the time. My fiance doesn’t even no how i feel. He won’t listen to me when I’m down. He just tells me.to stop thinking about it. its hard to when all u think about is being a mistake, a burden a piece of shit, absolutely nothing. I’m empty, im dead in side
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Hi, cryingout13… It can be really, really hard to put on an act and fake it all the time. Instead of sharing with others and allowing yourself to breathe, you keep it all inside and you begin to take it out on yourself. I think you’re much more than you describe yourself… and I think if you asked others around you, including your fiance, they would describe you quite differently. Your fiance is someone who will marry you for the person you are… We all have challenges in life… Think about them… and work slowly but steadily to conquer them. Try sharing with your fiance… Maybe not everything at first… but test the waters. It might help you a little bit.
“don’t think about it”
“go to sleep”
“close your eyes”
“pray”
“do something happy”
all those things, we’ve heard before by everyone who don’t understand.
but please know that you’re not alone, people who go through the same thing understands and if we keep supporting each other, we can get out of this.. hell hole.
♡stay strong.
“don’t think about it”
“go to sleep”
“close your eyes”
“pray”
“do something happy”
all those things, we’ve heard before from everyone who don’t understand.
but please know that you’re not alone, people who go through the same thing understands and if we keep supporting each other, we can get out of this.. hell hole.
♡stay strong.
You want empathy. You got it…totally cool. Been there many times. It’s alright to feel the way you do. Maybe just let yourself feel the way you do, when you judge it, it adds fuel to that fire you want to put out. So just be, (as best you can be) with it.
Instead of directing your energy towards explaining why you feel the way you do, think a better thought about yourself. Your thoughts create your reality. So the more you practice thinking you’re a mistake and a burden, you reinforce that belief. (A belief is just something you think over and over til..it’s a practiced ‘belief’). Change your thoughts opposite to what your thinking and as a result you’ll feel better slowly…the more you do it, by consciously practicing, things will slowly shift. They have to. The thoughts you are currently having are not worthy of the fantastic person you are. Believe it or not. Take care.
BTW, I feel pretty empty and dead inside but that does not define me, nor does it define you.
I’m in London for a few days on my own I suppose I hate it because I’ve got no money and there’s not a lot you can do here when your in the poorhouse. I’m supprised they don’t charge to breathe the air. Then because I only found out today that my ticket isn’t an open return im relying on work to order the tickets otherwise I’m in serious shit.