Every Tear Drop That Falls is a Tear Drop of Guilt all it Took Was Me To Break up with My Pakastani BF That Meant The World To Me and It Also Took was Just 1 Text From My Abusive and Jelous Friend That I’m No Longer Friends With and My Abusive and Jelous Friend Ruined My Perfect Life She Made My Perfect World Turn into Dust and Ashes While My Friend Ruined My Perfectly Built World I was Stuck Repairing and Fixing it Again My Eyes Are as Red as Blood From All The Tears That Has Fallen From My Eyes It Hurts Me […]
Love is after us 24/7 . But in the end ,you ended up in Hellâ€¦if
you make that fault mistake â€¦â€¦â€¦â€¦â€¦â€¦â€¦ but mine you ,youâ€™ll
Â still be in Love. I am Human but I bleed just like everyone
else. When she has her trying days, I listened to the rocks and
stones that come my way. Â Is this Love? Love is who you,
Surrender too. Whoever ,you think you where.Â Thatâ€™s when
ever thing changes, when Love, comes knocking on your
door.Â Love blinded you to a Fault, it Trust everything. It has
Faith in honor, without question. Believing is to convince
your mind, that the heart in your soul is safe Â ,and that […]
My life is hell. Â No, I’m not your average guy, and no I’m not looking for attention. Â I’m considering suicide. Â I love my kids, so I have found a way to get through today. Â My wife is driving me insane. Â We fight.. Â dirty.. Â I say things I know hurt her she says things to hurt me, wow how human.. Â however, Â I recant my mean and thoughtless words, and back up my recant with actions. Â I show her what I said is not true. Â On good days I chase her like a school boy and his first crush.. Â I love her madly.. Â she never recants. […]
I try to flee,
but something in the air
makes me get back here
I’m a fucking loser
I gave up on hope
Should I try to live better?
The world made me a suicidal
so the death I shoulda hug
This is my destiny
This is the place I belong
Sorry if I make any mistakes,I don’t speak english perfectly,could someone tell me if I’ve made a mistake?
My parents don’t want me. I hear them talk about how i was a mistake. They talk about it when they think i am sleeping. But im not. I hear them talk about it. After a while, i just decided to distance myself away from them. I go to school and i don’t want to leave. I come home and stay in my room. I am not wanted here. I think to my self every day. I think that one day, i will have the balls to either run away or just commit suicide. I haven’t decided yet. Im still debating. I have a lot […]
When a person is born … what is the purpose behind that birth??? What is the purpose behind mine???? Am I just born to nearly get everything one can want and have it snatched away from me in a second??? being born with calcium deficiency and convulsions… since then it has always been a struggle… I would have died then and there but mom sells her assets to save me… but for what ??? to torture me when i grow up… to prove that i am a mistake in her life… when i din’t have an issue with her marriage… why the sudden change from […]
I got to this point where I didn’t want to die. I saw my future for the first time in years. I thought I had a future. I thought maybe I mattered, that maybe I could survive, that people liked me and I could handle relationships. I was so wrong. Here I am, in college sitting in my closet, wanting to escape again. I don’t think I can do this. I don’t have enough left in me to keep going. But I also made the mistake, in the time that I was feeling ok about myself and my life, to get attached to people again. […]
I made another mistake. Again another mistake. All the stress, disappointment, failure, wasted finances I dont have, problems at work, added to my already deterioratking career, empty Â savings account, disappointed family and friends, car and motorcycle thay need to be rebuilt, jeez the list goes on. Just when you thought it was piled high or you feel youc’re making baby steps toward improvement THEN you get kicked all the way back into a crawl.
I dont get itk? All these other people are so successful, almost with out even trying. While I try my ass off s succeed Â then FALL! I fall twice as far as […]
Â August 1, 2013 Thursday 2:55 pm
Iâ€™m a lot stronger now than I have ever been. I have my anger somewhat controlled, Iâ€™m slowly getting it together. But as I look back at the hard times I was having. I was so scared and afraid of my future and didnâ€™t know my purpose on earth anymore. I felt like I should be dead at the age 23 years old. I lived a life as well as I could. I was so broken down and beaten I was just tired of waking up every day fighting to be happy or just to be alive . I wanted […]
Today I’m going to kill myself. Â I’m going to finish my day at work and when I’m done, I’m going to kill myself. Â I’m going to take the bottle of muscle relaxers and drink the bottle of wine and die in the spot that the homeless man sleeps when he’s drunk. Â When they take my body, they will have to clean the area and that will be good for him.
Alex will be so sad but she will write great songs about her feelings and go on to enjoy lots more success. Â She will meet someone new that will love her better than me. Â Her life […]
I made a mistake, a huge mistake. I met a boy, with beautiful green eyes and a personality that trapped me like a helpless fly in a spiders web. In that web was the only place I wanted to be. Over a couple weeks I got to know him and I fell, fell so hard it was sad. I smiled constantly, because of him, and he made me laugh, the real kind, (not the bubblegum-fairy-princess kind you feed to people around you when your depressed) it was amazing. I felt free of my chains when I was with him.
Mistake… Then I learned I […]
Why? Why is it that I feel useless? Why is it that people always find it so incredibly easy to leave me behind? I really don’t understand why I could possibly be so fucking useless and so hopeless that opening my eyes of a morning is the first and worst mistake I make of the day.
People always say “It’s a phase; you’ll grow out of it” or “You’re not really that sad, are you?” or, my personal favourite “I understand, you will be fine”
I wont be fine. I wont grow out of it. I am really that sad. It is such a challenge […]
I have been lost for such a long time.Â I sometimes think it started the day my mother died but that isn’t it.Â Â Or the day I asked for helpÂ the first time I tried to kill myself, and the military discharged me instead.Â I really don’t know where I went wrong.Â It seems when I ask for help, or try to talk about it, people either don’t want to listen or don’t believe me.Â I mean really, how can someone my age be going through this.Â I am the one who has these feelings and I struggle to believe it myself.
I left my life aÂ 5 years […]
As you know I have a very rich grandmother who is quite snobby and verbally abused me when i was a child. Last week I was talking to her on the phone and my plan had slipped out and i told her by mistake.. She tried long and far to stop me but i said no to everything… For some fucking stupid reason she decided to give me a mil to enjoy before I pass away…I now this would sound really fake to the average person but i don’t care if you believe me or not. All that matters is what should i do with […]
My name is praful raj.
I am suffering from torture of this world.
I came on this earth on 24th april 1995Â at 8:10 PM (GMT 5.50).I was born in an Indian state i.e Andhra Pradesh in Telangana region inÂ a city named HYDERABAD.
I want to commit suicide because my mother,father and brother hates me.
BUT i still love them.I am a hard worker.I study very hard to get *** marks.But my family wont support me and they always discourage me.They say me that i dont have any caliber or intelligence.They always join me in an institution in which rote learning is preferred.And i hate rote learning.They dint […]
I was born to this unforgiving world, and thinking now i wished that i never existed
8 years of my life that i suffered with my Family without knowing the reason….
I was born in a family of a Father working on another country that I’ve never seen until recently, a Mother who tends to destroy me physically,mentally and spiritually, beating me and locking me up for a small mistake and makes my body bleed for a case like for a single piece […]
I told a group of friends about my attempt which I totally regretted and want to move forward from. Â I told a few people and everything was okay. Â I made the mistake of telling more people that I respect and go to for advice… but they don’t know me as well. Â Anyways, I now feel like a leper. Â I can tell that certain people don’t want me around their families any more and that they are uncomfortable when they are around me. Â How are you supposed to move forward if opening up has so many negative consequences?
The walls of this house haunt me…They reflect every memory and mistake. As a child, the pictures on the walls, made me feel lucky. Like I was truly loved. Sooner than a young child should, I learned they were the mask, the mask over an unhappy home. The pictures scream at me… Telling me, remember before? When you were innocent and things were simple… They also tell me, keep up this bravado, be strong even when the mirror breaks you down, when every word from her mouth is trashing you.
But.. in all honesty I AM TIRED OF TRYING TO BE BRAVE, putting up […]
And again the cycle is repeated. The nights are the worst. That’s when the thoughts are prevalent. And what is it that stops me? It’s the idea of my body. No one deserves to find a loved one dead,especially if it’s at his own hand. Children need to live happy lives,not be scarred and tortured with gruesome images. No one deserves this pain. I want my life to be extinguished. The pain doesn’t matter because in the end I will succeed. The nights get colder and colder. My sheets aren’t enough. There is no warmth in my heart,just a void that never seems to end. […]
I never thought I would be here now. I recently turned eighteen and have been thinking about ending things lately.
You see, a few months ago I made a mistake of driving my car after working a double at work while under the influence of weed.Â I fell asleep at the wheel, crashed into a tree, and totaled my car. IÂ am now in the process of receiving a DUI, and trying to get into the ARD program. ARD is a program that will remove a DUI from your record, and allow you avoid jail time, this is for first time offenders only.
But I just feel like if […]