Sometimes I feel like I’m pretty and smart but then I look in the mirror and every name I’ve ever been called just comes flashing back to me and I try to be strong but I can’t. I just can’t. I don’t want to deal with this anymore, I don’t want to be me anymore. I tried reaching out to someone in real life but she thought I was kidding and she doesn’t understand. She’s never felt like this for a day in her life. I understand that I’m not the only one to feel like this, but I’m the only one here, where I live.
My parents are still trying to work out my adoption, turns out there’s a lot more to it than they thought. I’m dreading leaving the only place I’ve ever known. Why am I even complaining? My life doesn’t suck, not compared to some people’s lives.
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Why are they giving you up for adoption?
And there are plenty here who would probably talk to you on the phone at least.
I’m pretty morbid and set in my ways so I admittedly would not be much help outside of here.
But Guardian, WillTickin, Amakua, softsoul, one_day, Dawg, and others are really strong about supporting hope. And some of the ones in pain can have a mutual support system with you as well. Alina, Nat, rawrimaturtle, eh… my memory bites.
And Gaara makes some pretty astute posts as well.
I am here.
How old are you?
My parents are giving me up for adoption because they don’t want to be my parents anymore.
I’m 14
i got to believe there’s much more to it that just they “don’t want to be your parents” … not that it’s impossible to be the only reason – but the large majority of parents would need to be dead or dying before they give up their kids. there are deeper reasons that they are “protecting” you from.
i am a father of two … and because of divorce I was granted very little interaction with my kids … when I did have opportunities, it wan’t always sunshine and puppies. my adult daughter (as an adult) stole from me … and as pissed off as I was, I’d STILL never “give up”
perhaps they are facing deep financial problems that will leave them broke and unable to care for you, divorcing or one parent has a deadly disease or maybe a parent is going to jail and they are trying to secure your future to save you from the fallout of their problems before it affects you. I’d like to think that they are doing it as a last resort to protect you and give you the best life possible under the circumstances before whatever is going to happen, happens and it’s no longer in their control.
I know what I’m saying doesn’t sound “rosie’ … I’m sorry … but I don’t think it’s simply “we don’t want a child anymore … if that were the case, they’d just let you live with another relative.
all the best
one step at a time dawg
I’m sorry they are giving you up for adoption. Keep hope in your heart though. There are a lot of good adoptive homes that are loving and caring. My little brother is adopted and we all treat him the exact way we would if he was our real family. It will be scary to move to a new place but think of all the opportunities you will have. Much love and hope 🙂
I’m adopted, and although I don’t know my biological parents, my adoptive parents are/were amazing.
@Just listening …. thanks for reminding me … I thought there was something I was forgetting.
I was also adopted … granted, as a baby but still – if my biological parents were to “show up” tomorrow – they’d be complete and utter strangers to me … JL is correct that this “long involved” process means they are being careful and selective to find a situation that will be as good for you as possible under the circumstances.
forgetful dawg
Hey Dawg. You said you are a father if you could check out my post CAN MY FATHER BECOME MY DAD I would like a dads point of view 🙂