i have always been suicidal but i have always thought that it could get better. for some reason something has clicked in me. i dont care what happens to me now and im scared of that. like last night i was texting and driving and i wasnt watching the road because i said to myself that i dont care if i crash. if it happens it happens. like ive never felt like i dont care. i have always felt some inkling of hope and i dont. i was on my way home from school and i was seeing myslef in my head killing myself. and i didnt care. i wasnt thinking maybe it will get better. i have always hoped that this would happen and that i wouldnt care or be afraid and finally be able to die and now that i have that attitude i cant shake it and im afraid. i really dont want to be here anymore. im just so upset lately. im scared of myself. please help me. i am so afraid of what i might do because i just dont care anymore. i really feel like i just dont care.
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For awhile now I felt like that too, then one morning I woke up and realized that something’s different, like suddenly after so long I actually care what happens, and with that I know that I want to get myself help, tell somebody how I’ve been feeling and hopefully get some therapy or something like that. Too bad that I also feel like when i didn’t care I already messed my life up too much to keep living it now. But the point is that maybe if you just hold on for a little while longer one day you’ll realize that you care again too. Just give it some time.
thats what im doing. i dont want to die but i dont care if i do. its like wierd that im feeling this. like i wont kill myslef but its just scary knowing that if i did i wouldnt care.
i feel the sameway! i no longer look when i cross the road..or care if i take to many pills…
So you want to kill yourself… fine. But don’t endanger innocent fathers, mothers, entire families…
Now imagine if you live through it. Possible involuntary manslaughter, imprisonment, restitution and you have to live with yourself… Probably severely disabled and disfigured.
With that said. Find a more freaking peaceful method… Auto crashes are not always instant death.
I never thought of that. Thanks man. Wow that seriously opened my eyes. Thank you I never thought of that