i been told a dozen times to stop pushing everyone away,but i feel like its the only way i can tell whos real anymore,if they truely care and they know im just protecting myself, then them are the real people that will come back untill i give up pushing them away,i just dont care anymore,im gonna push every one away before they get the chance to push me away,it hurts less knowing its my choice,and i dont want to know the next person or people that are gonna hurt me,why would iwant to know something like that,i already know im worthless, i dont have to even try to piss someone off or ruin someones life,i dont give a fuck, the true people in this world are true to everyone except me,i cant just dye my hair or change my name to mean somthing,it doesnt matter, wen i was little, i pinched my self to make sure i could still feel, now i let the pain just burn my inside untill i dont feel anything,