How long does it take to suffocate? Just wondering if anyone knows . If you dont know then please dont respond. Dont tell me not to do it or I have choices or im not trying hard enough or I feel sorry for myself. Ya every body goes through shit and someone always has it worse , still want to die so tell me what you know or dont please. I just wanna know how long it takes.if anyone knows I dont want advice I just want to leave this world I dont care. I dont have family or friends im alone so it wont […]
have you ever done somthing bad and you dont realize it until after,people do what i did all the time,but not in the way i did it,but i still did what alot of people do,so why do i feel so bad?i cant talk to anyone about it,what i did,i feel like a bad person,but i feel so guilty,should i just pretend like i never did what i did,or punish myself?
this world is fucked up,im so sick of people,why do these heartless bitches have to exist,you wake up in the best mood ever,then you run into some random ***** that has to make a comment or get rude with you,or a dirty ass fucking look,people are such assholes.what is the point of life?its hard as hell and theres an obstical everywere you turn,its so much eiser to be depressed than happy,cause you take one look at this world and it makes you want to vomit.atleast with me,speaking for myself,
it is always the people you least expect,how can you trust anyone in this world,do people really care like they say they do,when they aint there wen you need them,but then when you dont need them,they decide to try and take over your life,were the fuck were you wen i needed you if you cared so much?mabey some people really do,but i dont understand how,people always think they know you,and sometimes more then you know yourself,but how the hell can they know me wen i bearly know myself?its not possible,this world is so shitty,it feels like iv been forced into this world,out of my control […]
why does life have to be so hard?some people think its so easy,or they say(it cant be that bad)them are the people who have family,and friends,people that care about them,and have never been hit in there entire lifes,lets see them close minded fucks try to walk in these shoes,them people that tell me that,wouldnt last a day,iv lasted 21 years,i cant say i survived,i thrived more then anything,i still thrive,i aint that lucky little 16 year old who has a mom and a dad to buy her a car and get her ,her drivers licence,i dont have the support for shit,i do everything on my […]
has anyone ever jumpt a train before?im just wondering because i want to do it,i want to see were it takes me,but question for the people who have already done it,is there anything i should know?
i want to run so bad,but im scared to jump a train,i want to go somewere warm,what if the train takes me to a different country,i herd someone say once that you have to becarefull cause the train driver takes tops every once in a while to check an make sure noone jumpt the train,and they will beat you if they find you,,,i can only hope it will bring me somewere warm,my friend hitched hiked and jumpt trains all the way from california,she told me the rush she got from running,i want it so bad,but the only thing thats stoping me is my dad,i love […]
why do i stay here if nothing is here for me,my dad is in prison and he is the only reason why i havnt ran away yet,cause i know he needs me to write him,i love him,and i said i wouldnt quit talking to him,he doesnt get out for another ten years,hes all i have,but he was never there for me,so why do i even bother beingthere for him,i dont know if i should leave or not,every night i hear the train go by,and i always think about jumping it,and seeing were it takes me,i dont care about the consequences,i already have ran 15 thousand […]
if we were all born with sin,and none of us are good enough to get to heaven,then we are pretty much fucked over,i think of every possible reason,what the point of life would be,but i cant think of any,i try so hard to be strong,but the humane in me cant fucking take it anymore,if i dont have nobody,then why do i stay here,if i wanted to jump a train right now,i could,why cant i just get up and leave,theres nothing here,fuck it,
i am not asking to be judged,or told if its right or wrong,i am asking in my shoes what you think is worse,,,,,if sombody hurt you really bad,and they walked out of your life,then down the road,they wanted to come back in your life,what would hurt more,if you were them,if you didnt even acknoloage the person that hurt you,not even respond,or tell them how they are fake and you will never trust them again,and ask them if you are the only one they hurt and lied to,then tell them to stay the fuck away from you and tell them they are dead to you,???
its two days away from my 21st birthday,i dont have any body,noone to celebrate it with,or go out to diner or lunch, just me and myself,what the fuck happened,i want to die so bad,im not gonna kill myself,whats the point if noone would care if i was dead either,you know when you once had such good memories that you cant even think about it,cause it kills you,and you didnt mean to ever ruin anything or hurt anybody,you were just young and damaged and screaming out for help,and nobody helped you,but it was ok,i was in a group home but i was actually happy for […]
im so sick of people thinking they know me,
how can anyone know me if i dont really know myself?cause im not the main sorce of information for my own life?soon wen you let every body in, and they all hurt you, this mask doesnt do know good, it becomes to late, it can protect me from other people, but it cant protect me from myself,.has anyone ever felt like they wanna die,or even more wen you thiink of certain people?and its hard not to wen thats all u have,i try to be strong for 21 years, and the only thing iv accomplished is […]
tap water has floride in it,you know what els floride is in?rat poisioning,dont believe me, next time you go to the store, look on the ingredients of rat poisioning, and look up what tap water has in it,they can do that, if the highest power government allows it and puts that in water, noone can make them get in troble, they are above everyone,they are above the law,
i was looking at the ingredients in my jar of penut butter, i lookedÂ one of the ingredients up, this is what it says(Copper sulfate is a commonly included chemical in children’s chemistry sets and is often used to grow crystals in schools and in copper plating experiments. Because of its toxicity, it is not recommended for small children. Copper sulfate is often used to demonstrate an exothermic reaction,Copper sulfate was also used in the past as an emetic. It is now considered too toxic for this use. It is still listed as an antidote in the Continue Reading
i been told a dozen times to stop pushing everyone away,but i feel like its the only way i can tell whos real anymore,if they truely care and they know im just protecting myself, then them are the real people that will come back untill i give up pushing them away,i just dont care anymore,im gonna push every one away before they get the chance to push me away,it hurts less knowing its my choice,and i dont want to know the next person or people that are gonna hurt me,why would iwant to know something like that,i already know im worthless, i dont have to […]
it will always be the person you least expect,nomatter how many times you dye your hair, or change your appearence,your still you and your nothing special, not like everyone els,life is overrated,so whats so special about making the best outa having nothing, having noone,being used consinly, every time you stick your face out the front door, you fail to make it any futher,everytime you stick your face out the front door, someone says there your freind, but they aint,they either use you, or call you once and find you worthless enough to never answer or call you again,the only person that has ever made me […]
im really bord,have asomnia,does anyone think alot?so much that you foget what you were thinking about 30 seconds ago?what if someone on this website lived right next door to you?or what if its your own teacher or co worker and you have no idea?do you ever think of that?after thinking of that, idont think i could ever say my real name,especially after i said i took a buch of pills last night,i hate life,wisconsin is so boring,i want to live by the ocean,sorry if anyone likes wisconsin,nothing fun ever goes on here,im really depressed and happy at the same time, its driveing me crazy,im only […]
i really dont get some the reasons for open caskets,before the funerals, they say its respectful to look at who ever is dead laying in there coffin, as everyone is standing in aline waiting to look.so im saposibly the disrespectful one that doesnt look, but tell me,if i really loved that person, why would i want the last image in my head to be of them laying in a coffin dead?if i only had one very last memory, why would i want it to be of them dead? why? that horrible?when my step dad died and i got close enough up to the open casket […]
i just took a bunch a sleeping pills, wasnt paying attention to how much,doesnt matter anyways, you know that pain, that deep horrible pain that you cant bear anymore?i had to do somthin, i had to take stuff to help me sleep, i want to escape for a little bit,something kept telling me to take more, not a voice but this feeling, like my conciounce keept screaming out(just take one more,)so i did,hope it dont kill me, i have a plan , its to lay on the rail road tracks,well the pills are starting to kick in, i still feel the pain,i feel a little […]