I hate the fact that you make fun of and say mean shit about the one person that I really love…I hate that when my boyfriend broke up with me you showed no pity but you kick me out of the room when you want to talk to your friend who was stood up for his second date….I hate that I can’t get away, that there is no where to go, and no one to listen. And everyday that I think I want to kill myself and I talk myself out of it I find myself wishing I did kill myself the next day.
I just want so bad to get away and not be here right now….I really just want to die so bad. I’ve lost everything and I just want to not feel all of the pain and disappointment anymore.
I sincerely wanted to wait until my short October for fall break to kill myself because this semester I have a single room and I know everyone will be away that weekend….that way I don’t have to bother anyone during the 24-72 hours of killing myself. But I honestly don’t know if I can make it through the summer. I don’t know what to do anymore and I just want to give up.