Saw this and laughed.
True. 😉
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There’s a fine line between “Adversity Builds Character” and “Please Just Shoot Me Now”.
I try to strike a balance halfway, but sometimes it’s a stretch.
Good news, sort of: Bought two new strong aluminum canes with a pretty leafy green vine print on them. And, since the last time I posted in 2016, I got a brand new wheelchair for indoors. Currently it’s in the kitchen, right next to the fridge, so when I want a bottle of water or tea, all I have to do is […]
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It’s been maybe a year since I was in the habit of visiting and commenting here each day.
Rough year.
But here are some pictures I took today. Lots of greenery next to a peaceful river while I treated myself to some ice cream. (Highly recommended).
I wonder if any of the same people are still here, or are you all new?
Either way, hi.
All I accomplished today was eating a sub.
It was tasty.
Then I tried spending some time on the wifi but was so tired/depressed I couldn’t function and couldn’t concentrate on anything, so I drove home, got into bed, and slept for six hours.
Hi, there.
Looking forward to that impossible magical time when I am completely stress free so I can actually feel like I am getting some rest.
Having a rough time lately.
It’s good to be here, among others who are also in various stages of struggle.
It gets dark around 5:30 this time of year.
Even though I love being concealed by the darkness, I still have mixed thoughts about it.
That feeling of “I accomplished absolutely nothing today” arrives 4 hours sooner than it does in summer.
Humorous and discouraging all at once.
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Sending out good thoughts to those of you who have extra stress/depression during the holidays.
It’s rough for me, and I’m sure I’m not the only one.
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I almost said “Happy Friday” before realizing it’s not Friday yet.
My health/mobility has gotten bad enough that I can’t keep my home clean anymore by myself. Actually it’s been that way for awhile now, and I’ve taken a long time deciding what to do about it. Now that I’m officially categorized as disabled, I have a little bit to spend on hiring a housekeeper. I think once the place is really clean again, it will take away a lot of the […]
Poking my head in to say hi after a long absence.
The holiday season always makes my depression a lot worse, so you’ll be seeing more of me in the upcoming weeks.
I have more anxieties than I care to count right now.
Later today I will see if a meatball sub helps any of it feel temporarily better.
If it does, yay!
If not, at least I got a sub out of the deal.
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It’s been awhile since I’ve checked in, so I’m stopping by today to say hi.
It’s been a singular solitary life lately; my friends are all immersed in their own lives and family issues and changing circumstances. You know how it is. Sometimes people forget you’re there.
Still have the same chronic health issues and mobility limitations. Still wearing the leg braces and using the canes, sometimes a wheelchair walker instead. Since I am single and live alone, I am the only person around to take care of myself.
Anyway, today I decided to get out and enjoy some scenery at one of the lakes not too far […]
Wednesday I did one of the things on my bucket list, which was to take a trip somewhere outside my comfort zone.
Done.
I put all the trip pictures on my Tumblr blog.
Check them out and feel the joy (and the angst).
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Part one: (Getting started, and realizing that planning is futile)
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Part two: (Why I picked this place)
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Part three: (The park in the center of the mitten)
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Part four: (A beautiful chemical dump)
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Part five: (The music store!)
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Hey everybody.
I’ve been absent for awhile, so here I am checking in to let you know I’m still breathing.
First, as an appetizer, have a cartoon before I dive into my update:
After sinking down far enough, the rescue efforts stop because people can’t see anyone below the surface anymore.
I feel the seaweed already.
Just an angsty picture of me on Friday.
Saturday I was horribly sick.
Today I feel slightly better, though I still think I may need to stay in bed. Currently watching Monty Python And The Holy Grail. It’s hard to be suicidal while watching Monty Python.
Carry on.
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Not doing so well.
Parked here for awhile, staring ahead at nothing, head has that post-migraine hollowness.
Not able to process much of anything. The depression itself is a powerful sedative. Like extreme gravity holding me down and burying me in steel. I feel almost nothing.
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Insomnia, Depression.
Awake all night long!
Thinking of unpleasant things.
(This sleep-deprived haiku was brought to you by Cordless).
Irony: Amitryptaline supposedly has “drowsiness” as a side effect.
Not for me, it doesn’t. 😉
The only comforting thought I have left is that maybe some of you will do this.
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http://suicideproject.org/wp-content/uploads/2016/07/wishingwell.mp3
Not doing so well these days.
Life is a chaotic painful thing, and its opposite is a quiet motionless thing.
I am watching videos of terrible horrible car/truck crashes, imagining myself behind the wheel.