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Dear him:

When the  sun failed to shine on your face or in your life, you sought a silver lining. You searched and searched yet you never found it. I always wanted to be the silver lining but I just wasn’t good enough. As much as I was good to you, was there during your illness, when you suffered financially, others had abandoned you or didn’t care, I was still there. You had your flaws, but I overlooked them because I knew you had goodness in your heart. You were just too jaded and angry to bring any goodness to the surface.

I had always hoped to […]

How crass of me to think living my life in a good way would be beneficial?  Somehow I’d appease myself or ‘God.’ It really doesn’t mean anything I am finding. There is no glory, no making a difference, no touching someone in a small way only a momentary feeling of ‘goodness’ so quickly to evaporate.

I was there all that time for him. When the world was a dark, lonely place with no light in sight. Years of health issues and not being able to live. Sadness crept in when people who were supposed to be friends skipped out of the picture and never acknowledged his […]