I have been on this site for about a month now. Â I have read a lot of posts and commented on some. Â Meanwhile I struggle more and more everyday. Â I feel like I am screaming please help me but all I hear is things like “you’ll feel better when the spring comes”, or “you’ll feel better when you get back to work”. Â A little background, I have been off work for 3 years because I was diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia. Â I have told my psychiatrist that I am feeling depressed, eating and sleeping too much but even he doesn’t understand how much I am struggling […]
I have attempted suicide 3 times. Â Two were almost successful. Â My family was so surprised, Â I was surprised they were surprised. Â I felt like I was yelling it from the rooftops. Â I suffer from paranoid schizophrenia, I have lost so much of what I wanted to this disease that even when I am not depressed I consider ending it all. Â Â The first time I attempted suicide I took a massive overdose. Â Unsuccessful obviously. Â I was hospitalized for a week. Â Last fall, I climbed over a bridge rail, a very tall bridge which I won’t name. Â It was so well planned. Â It […]