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Acting’s the reason I am on this site. Acting’s the reason I am still here.

by action 8/13/2012

written by action

Every second week I have a practical lesson with my camera acting class. They are beautiful, I love them so much. They care about each other. They don’t judge. They think, ‘the weirder, the better’. They are all amazing actors and I feel like I belong. Why must it be two weeks? I don’t know if I can survive.

Oh, and why I hate it? Performing arts school- I love my drama, but the people there do the oppositeÂ they do at my screen class. Leave? No. Have precious friends and I wouldn’t be able to make anywhere else.

And I will never be a successful (I don’t […]

8/13/2012 5 comments

Just a Thought…

by action 8/11/2012

written by action

Hi, I’m action. I’ve been on this site for around 2 years now. No-one really knows me though because I’m not the greatest at making friends. The friends I have in real life, I made ages ago which is kind of luckyÂ I guess. Anyway, I was thinking and… When I’m on this site I feel sort of, kind of… normal, or one of the majority I guessÂ I could say. By that I mean, going through the stuff I do, and most likely you do too (see what I mean). But is it really normal? IÂ feel when I’m on this site, majority of people are going […]

8/11/2012 1 comment

I’ve Proven Myself Wrong

by action 8/6/2012

written by action

I justÂ took over 100 prescription pills. Yay for me… I don’t know if I’m scared or happy. I never thought I would do it, that’s for sure. I was really scared and was going to call someone but I didn’t want to be an attention seeker. Now you say, that’s not attention seeking. But really think about it. I have some pills infront of me and I go whining to someone to tell me not to do it. It justÂ looks like I’ve put them infront of me to, well, seek attention.Â Iv’e thrown up twice. I took them about 5 minutes ago. I hope this works, […]

8/6/2012 2 comments

I’m Scared (I know, I’m so original at titles)

by action 8/4/2012

written by action

I’m scared of getting up in the morning. I’m scared of pain. I’m scared of failing suicide today. I’m scared of embarrassment.Â I’m scared of being raped or murdered. I’m scared of being judged. I’m scared of being forever alone.

8/4/2012 2 comments

RAWR!

by action 7/26/2012

written by action

3 months!!! 3 fucking months since I’ve bruised myself… And i broke it RAWR RAWR RAWR

7/26/2012 1 comment

Rainbows

by action 7/6/2012

written by action

I know this is stupid but I had to make a poem for english and I worked for days on this becaue I tried so hard not to write about anything too deep since we had to explain the meaning being conveyed in the poem… So I guess if you’re feeling sad search or draw or think up a rainbow because rainbows make me happy and this is what happens to me when I see one… And also just to let you knowÂ this is a scene I set out of me walking to school…

As I search for that rainbow

Vengeful clouds devour the sky

Chill infects my […]

7/6/2012 2 comments

Just thoughts… Gone on a rant :l

by action 7/6/2012

written by action

On Monday my primary school best friend (still see her and am fine with her) invited me to a thing with about 10 of her high school friends (including one I went out with and am now a bit intimidated by). I was with my friend today and we were in the shops and passed one of her friends. SO AWKWARD. I was only there for 3 minutes… I’ll be there for 6 hours. Mmmm… :/ I think i might just not go and say I’m sick. She’ll probably know I’m lying. And I’m sorry… you don’t know me… Not my story… I’ve done some […]

7/6/2012 3 comments