I am so depressed right now that it almost hurts to breathe. I just want to curl up in a ball and die. I want somebody to hold me so I can cry o. Their shoulder like a baby. But I can’t cry. I have a dam built up inside me to keep my emotions from showing. It has held up well so far, but dams break, and I’m scared of what will happen when my dam breaks.
Nobody understands me. Nobody knows how I really feel. No one knows how depressed I am or that I am constantly having to deal […]
I posted something the other day, but it really didn’t explain my ‘history’ as people are calling it.
Hey. I’m Adrienne. People call me Addie. I’m almost 18. I have a great family (except my dad). I put a shitload of pressure on myself. I have been cutting myself for about 6 years. It got pretty hard-core during the last 3 years. I don’t do it to feel alive, per se; I do it to punish myself for anything I can think of, or if I just feel depressed. I have attempted suicide twice, both times failing (obviously). I have been seriously considering doing it again, […]
I have been seriously considering suicide for several years. I am a hard-core cutter. I have several ways that I am considering killing myself. I have attempted suicide before, and ended up in a psych hospital, which absolutely sucked. I think that the easiest method by far would be to take a cyanide pill or to inhale cyanide somehow, but I don’t know where you’d get it.
If nobody does yet, I’ll probably revert back to one of my other methods. I ‘m sick of everything at this point, and I don’t give a shit about anything any more, and I just want it all […]