-stop smoking
-lose weight
-work on self esteem
-work on social anxiety
-stop cutting
anyone else?
Now take these memories
and splatter them on paper
take my blood and splash it on them
to help me forget them
they took me
and shook me
im fixing them
there changing me
never again
should they cut me
im changing
and its scary
but there words are gone
and im better off
so take these memories
they cant hurt me.
i dont mean to be but i just get upset and want to hurt myself it helps my lungs feel better and the stress go away i just i want to not feel this way the only way to feel batter is to do somthing destrive to yourself but somtimes it feels like my only way out. why dose cutting has to become so addtive i cave it about every day i just cant help it sometimes
everything is so confusing, like one second im fine and the next i want to feel pain, and little stuff sets me off, i feel like my friends dont want me around and i have hard times being around my family. when my mother drinks i become panicie and feel the need to cut. tonight i dont know i just was really upset and i dont see a point to life, you live then die and put up with everything in bettween, i only feel kinda happy like 50% of time if even then i just dont know anymore. im sorry this is really random […]