I’m looking for help, someone good with advice to talk to… I need help, support, and advice…
Day 2 of 7 without you… you said you missed me a little and are leaning a little more towards yes, but still leaning more towards no… what am I going to do without you… please… don’t go…
I love you more than my own life… you swore to me marriage and a future… you swore to always love me… and now I don’t even know if you’ll be here… you may leave… please… don’t go… the millions of chances I’ve given you, just give me one… you PROMISED to work through this with me, no matter how hard… please… don’t go…
Fuck all of this… even with you sitting right next to me, suicide is still my first thought… why am I still here; I’m so done with this all…
So I don’t think I will be…
My boyfriend even told me I’m a pain in the ass… why are you even with me if I’m that fucking bad… I might as well leave you so your life can improve…
This has got to stop… the constant depression, self doubt, pain… I don’t know anything beyond pain now, to the point where I wanna cause myself more pain because I just want to hurt as much as possible… I don’t mean a thing in anyone’s life… I can’t do anything for anyone… why am I even here…
I’m not gonna go out of my way to kill myself, but I wouldn’t really care if something happened to me. I don’t see why I should care. No one else will. So it wouldn’t really matter.
Nothing, absolutely NOTHING, gets to me more than people who don’t understand anxiety and depression, so they treat you like you’re a whiny ***** for everything. If you don’t understand it that’s fine, not everyone does. But don’t go and treat me like a fucking ***** who whines about “stupid shit.” Until you know what it feels like to have parents hate you, “friends” who only stay around because they hope you’ll eventually sleep with them then treat you like you’re less than human because you don’t, been raped, been abused, held a knife to your throat ready to pull it… bottle of pills in […]
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I don’t know if it’s help to anyone else, but it’s help to me…
I admit I don’t have the greatest life. My mom is the shittiest person alive, no one actually cares about me they just pretend they do then treat me like shit, I’ve lost everyone I’ve ever been close to, I’ve been through abuse of every kind, I have a lot of health issues, I have extreme anxiety and depression, and I’ve never been given any reason to like myself so I don’t. But there are definitely people out there who have it worse than I do. So why do I always feel like I want to die… nothing can really make me happy anymore and […]