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AJokeOfFate

Helpless and Hopeless

by AJokeOfFate 8/3/2015

written by AJokeOfFate

Before i say much of anything, I feel like I’ve got to make something clear: I dont want help. No, maybe I dont feel as if Im beyond help, but honestly at this point Id rather not hope that things will get better. Plus, oh unlikely reader of mine, there are better people on this site who actually deserve your help. Good people. Hurt people. People who wont give up as easily as I have.

Its been a while since Ive been on this site. A couple of months, perhaps. Definitely a few months since Ive posted or even commented. I suppose the reason is […]

8/3/2015 1 comment

Searching… [Error] (Happiness not found)

by AJokeOfFate 3/30/2015

written by AJokeOfFate

It’s funny.

I claim to have no friends, no one that i trust, yet i am constantly on this search to find someone i can trust thoroughly, someone i can share every stupid idea or deepest secret with.

Yet i know that such a thing is unlikely. Why, you may ask (or probably not since pretty much no one is going to read this)? Because though I’m the type of person that likes to be left alone, i also desire to be seen as special, unique, etc. I want to revel in others’ awe of me (does that make sense?).

I want to fall in […]

3/30/2015 9 comments

You never think you’re as old as you’re ever going to get.

by AJokeOfFate 12/28/2014

written by AJokeOfFate

Has anybody seen the movie Winter’s Tale? I just watched it last night and I’m halfway through watching it again right now. For some reason, watching that movie makes me stop wanting to die and all of my desires disappear until the only thing I really want is true love, fairytale style.
Sappy, I know, especially for a 16 year old guy, but I can’t help what I hope for. And for once, I actually don’t mind hoping for love.

12/28/2014 14 comments

Anyone want a friend?

by AJokeOfFate 12/6/2014

written by AJokeOfFate

Im free most hours of the day and very attentive. If you ever want to talk, my email is misbahq93@gmail.com and my kik is HFSociopath (Im not actually a sociopath).

12/6/2014 0 comment

A Joke of Fate

by AJokeOfFate 11/12/2014

written by AJokeOfFate

That’s basically all I am. I am a joke of Fate, a fly trapped in the web she never stops weaving, a plaything that she uses to occasionally humor herself. And it really sucks.
It’s ironic, actually, because I always tell others to be who they are, an individual, and never give up hope. But I guess I let that last chance out of Pandora’s jar a long time ago, because I don’t think I’ll ever amount to anything.

11/12/2014 0 comment

I’m Lost

by AJokeOfFate 10/30/2014

written by AJokeOfFate

I honestly don’t know what to do. Everything’s slowly coming apart at the seams. I’m falling behind in all of my classes and hardly paying attention to my parents. I’m unattractive and most of the people that I hang out with just think of me as really annoying. I bet there’s a line of people waiting to try and kill me. Hell, I’ve even stopped reading books as much as i used to. And it’s not just that I feel unmotivated. I just don’t know what to do anymore. I suppose that’s what it’s like when you live your whole life doing what people tell […]

10/30/2014 6 comments

STOP. READ THIS.

by AJokeOfFate 10/16/2014

written by AJokeOfFate

Stop whatever you’re doing and read this. It’s important.

Okay, chances are, you’re probably on this website because you had a terrible day or worse; a terrible childhood. Or some sort of traumatic experience. But you know what the other reason for you being here is? The much bigger and more important reason? The fact that you’re alive and a sentient being.
You have free will to a certain extent. Your mental capacity is nigh on infinite. You’re a beautiful and complex person. What’s more is that you matter. You’re important. You are amazing and awesome and genuine. So don’t let anyone else tell you […]

10/16/2014 10 comments

I’m so tired…

by AJokeOfFate 10/16/2014

written by AJokeOfFate

I just… I feel empty and I need someone to talk to. Anyone willing to hold up a conversation with a crazy hormonal teenager? I’ll try not to disappoint, but no promises.
My email is misbahq93@gmail.com

10/16/2014 7 comments

An Offer of Help

by AJokeOfFate 9/18/2014

written by AJokeOfFate

If anyone at all needs someone to talk to, no matter what, you can email me misbahq93@gmail.com I won’t judge you or lie to you and I’ll always respond. Promise.

9/18/2014 3 comments

Anyone Wanna Talk?

by AJokeOfFate 8/31/2014

written by AJokeOfFate

I’m just curious as to what brought all of you people here. If you wanna talk about yourself or just you need someone to listen to your problems, I’m here.

8/31/2014 24 comments

Moron

by AJokeOfFate 8/29/2014

written by AJokeOfFate

Yup, that’s me. Moron extraordinaire. I dunno if that’s a word but it is now. I’m a moron. I’m the moron of morons. Im the king of idiots and bad choices and stupidity. God knows other people have told me that enough. But you know what? I’m perfectly fine with being a moron. In fact, I quite like it. Everyone’s trying to be something they’re not and I’m just chilling being a moron. I’m one step ahead of you, society. Ha!

8/29/2014 3 comments

Empty

by AJokeOfFate 8/27/2014

written by AJokeOfFate

I just.. I feel so empty. Yeah, normally its easy to laugh it off and hide behind a mask, act normal, human even. But right now, when I’m sitting at home and in bed, all of my walls come down. I feel so weak and hopeless- and of course my parents choose this very moment to tell me how worthless I am and how I’ll never amount to anything and how I should have been more like my brother. The worst part? I agree with them.
I’m not anything special; I don’t have any outstanding talents- and trust me on this. I can read people […]

8/27/2014 10 comments

Someone to Trust

by AJokeOfFate 8/26/2014

written by AJokeOfFate

This probably isn’t the best idea, but…
I’ll get straight to the point. I’m doing this because so many people on here don’t have someone they can confide in reliably and honestly, its the same for me. But if you want to, you can email me at misbahq93@gmail.com
I don’t have much of a social life so I’ll try to respond as soon as possible to any emails. Please, if you really need someone, don’t hesitate. I know I’m not much but I’ll try my best to help you out or at least listen to what you have to say…

8/26/2014 0 comment

Importance

by AJokeOfFate 8/25/2014

written by AJokeOfFate

Did you know? In 900 years of time and space, I never met anybody who wasn’t important?
You count. You matter. You are unique and beautiful and brilliant. And if you forget it, I’ll remind you. How do I know? Its simple really. I’m never wrong.

8/25/2014 0 comment

Pain

by AJokeOfFate 8/24/2014

written by AJokeOfFate

It hurts so much to see what you’re all going through and what you have been through. If I could, I’d take all of your pain on my own shoulders. I’d not survive it but I would rather my own suffering than all of yours. I’m not the crying type of person but this honestly brings tears to my eyes. Especially knowing that I’m useless in helping anyone with their problems. But if anyone wants to share their burden, I’m here.

8/24/2014 3 comments

Friends

by AJokeOfFate 8/24/2014

written by AJokeOfFate

I could really use some right now… I feel like shit and I know it won’t get better at least today. I want someone to talk to but at the same time I’d rather not burden anyone with my presence.

8/24/2014 18 comments

Unimportant

by AJokeOfFate 8/23/2014

written by AJokeOfFate

Caring isn’t an option for me, as much as I hate to say it. I can’t just look at someone and ignore their pain. Yes, I may be blind to it at first but as it becomes apparent to me, I feel it as my own. And that’s the one thing I truly hate myself for. Because I’m incapable to hold a grudge or to sabotage someone because of something they did to me. Forgiveness comes easy- almost too easy at times.
I wish I could distance myself from people like people have done to me. Honestly, it would be so much easier and my […]

8/23/2014 2 comments