I don’t understand why I let her in again. It took less than 24 hours for me to fall back under her spell. I have no power in this relationship- I never have. When I left her ten months ago, I slowly started to gain my self-confidence and independence back. But four days ago, I let her back into my life. I am weak again, and I just want her to hold me and run her fingers through my hair. I am so close to my 1000th day of not self-harming, and I have not stopped thinking about cutting […]
I don’t believe in the saying, “fake it ’til you make it”. You wanna know why? Because it’s complete bullshit. I can fake being strong, I can fake being happy, I can fake being safe. But I will never, ever be any of those things. I don’t think that I’ve gotten enough credit as an actor, honestly. I’m much better than most of the people who deserve to be on this planet at acting. I just wish that someone would notice me and care enough to try and save me.