AngelLilith

They say the best thing you can do when you have a problem is to admit it, but who wold I tell that I’m depressed if I’ve already bodered every single one of my friends with it?

I have absolutely no reason to be depressed, but yet I’m here again feeling that the reallity got broken and everything went down as if the word wasn’t anything but a casttle of glass.
Can’t tell anyone because people never really cares or they have no way to help… how to help if you don’t even know what’s all about? I think I just need to jump and fall […]

In a dark room is a girl sitting still with her nails scratching the floor beneath her and her breath is getting out of control as a desperation spiral, somehow it becomes laugh.
That hysterical laugh that replaces the crying, little tears show up on her face and her little fist hit the ground, the inestbility of her mind is driving her crazy.
She screams and it hurts deep down on her chest, creating an echo of pain that moves like waves on her entire body. “Is this ever going to end?” she wonders, but a voice on her head sais “never” and she knows […]

I’m not like in the suicide mood but in the murder mood… probably I’m just being foolish and getting mad about something meaningless, but it fucking hurted.

And it hurted ’cause it was my younger brother the one who caused me the humiliation, it was his stupid fault that I had to go there and then when he was getting the carbage out he practically threw it at my face… may be I’m childish but it was so humiliating I just locked my room so I wont go out and kill him.

Do you knowthat picture in wich a person is surrounded by people but seems like is totally alone?

That’s the way im feeling now, in this very moment I’mlocked up on my bedroom thinking about this afternoon when I sat on the hallway with me, myself and I, and I wanted to cry but I have an image to keep so the only thing I could do was check up my phone pretending I was ok with the world.

I have people to talk but never about these themes, and I feel totally alone :'(

I’m depressed, always depressed, but rigth now I’m worst because I’ve been having troubles to sleep so I’m too sensitive and everything makes me feel bad.

I posted in my facebook something like “I know that if this night i took the decision of killing myself, I can count with the fingers of my hands the ones who will care and even them will get over it. But it doesn’t matter since I’m to coward to make the decision”

And my best friend got crazy and told me “I’m sick of you saying you want to kill yourself, if you want to then just do it and […]

A few months ago i read “Crash Into Me” by Albert Borris… is about a group of teens that decides to go on a trip when, at the end, they are going to decide what are they going to do with their lives -suicide or not- is really funny and kinda crazy in some points but at least it made me feel good for a while, without suicide thoughts

I think the title says it all but I really need to express my self to someone who would actually understand.

I have a great family, besides my crazy mom and my over-protector dad and my annoying brother, they are always around to offer their support. I have good friends too, and average grades and money enough to have a happy life.

Yeah, that might sound perfect or at least something that a lot of people wish, but i don’t… I’m just sick of all the things around me.

I’m different to all the people I’ve known, since I was a child I didn’t like how life is […]