So it has been awhile since i was last on here. I found someone who made me forget about my shit life and for awhile i forgot about wanting to end my life. I have been through some messed up stuff but i have always put on a smile and played my role as the good daughter, the dependable best friend, the happy coworker, etc. But this person i fell in love with broke all of those masks. I cant hide behind anything anymore. I cant pretend that i give a shit about anything any more. Why would he want me? Im no good for […]
Lets see where should i start? ok how about when i was little, all of my grandparents are dead and i know that is just life but right after my grandpa died in 2001 my dad died a month later. i was 11 and he was my whole life. I used to think about how he would walk me down the isle one day. i stayed up with him at night and watched westerns with him. i was his little girl and he was my daddy but i lost him and i feel like since then i have been waiting to see him again but […]