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Road to the End

by arealist 5/22/2014

written by arealist

So as with everyone alive, I’m on the road to death. I’ve decided that I’m going to chose my exit rather than wait for the road to come to an end.

I’m clearing out my house at the moment, getting rid of all the things I’ve accumulated. Giving away all my nice things, throwing away all the junk. Once the house is cleared out I can get it sold. Get my last will and testament drawn up.

Once those things are complete I will be free to commit suicide whenever I feel like it. I had a plan of what to do once I was free of […]

5/22/2014 3 comments

Women of SP, I need some advice please

by arealist 5/12/2014

written by arealist

I’m still in love with my ex-girlfriend. We had an incredible relationship up to the point that I lost my son and depression took hold of me, we separated for a few months and got back together just as I lost my mother to a rapid cancer death. Depression took hold of me again and we separated in November last year. I have always been in love with her, throughout our time together and our time apart. I have never entertained the thought of being with anyone else.

We separated both times because I lost the ability to communicate and I had lost myself, the man […]

5/12/2014 20 comments

Still Hope

by arealist 5/8/2014

written by arealist

I have lost a wife, a son, a mother and most recently a soul mate. I’ve had severe depression for 6 years, for the last month I have done nothing but plan my exit.

I’ve had two attempts in the past, in 2009 I couldn’t step off a long drop hanging I had well researched and constructed, I just wasn’t ready to do it then. About 2 weeks ago I took an overdose of paracetamol which was unplanned and failed due to consuming a large amount of alcohol in a short space of time and vomiting undigested pills.

I have committed to ending my life but have […]

5/8/2014 1 comment