So as with everyone alive, I’m on the road to death. I’ve decided that I’m going to chose my exit rather than wait for the road to come to an end.
I’m clearing out my house at the moment, getting rid of all the things I’ve accumulated. Giving away all my nice things, throwing away all the junk. Once the house is cleared out I can get it sold. Get my last will and testament drawn up.
Once those things are complete I will be free to commit suicide whenever I feel like it. I had a plan of what to do once I was free of the things anchoring me down where I am. I posted about it in my first post here. I just don’t feel the same way about it now.
I think I will go a lot earlier than I had originally planned to, I’ve been looking at methods and I have decided on Nitrous Oxide as the best sounding, cleanest and most accessible method for where I live.
It’s now just a case of when.
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I’ll be doing exactly the same, with the addition of a week long booze bender and a game of Poker. Not to mention sorting out my will and life insurance policy. I don’t really mind what happens to my possessions, but my guitar is definitely not going to anyone in my family.
But of course; now we wait. Good luck settling all accounts.
Oh have no doubt I will be having a bender to end all benders. I’ll be lucky enough to have quite a bit of money. I fully intend to go out with a bang, just not the explosive kind. Good luck to you to Shephard.
Please don’t kill yourself. You should call a suicide prevention hotline or you can use a suicide prevention chat room where you can talk to trained counselors. Even if you are not about to commit suicide they will still talk to you.
Also you should tell some people you know in real life that you feel suicidal so they can help you. Then you can get into psychiatry or therapy and get some anti-depressants or other medication that will help you feel better.