my mom tells me that its just because of quarantine and that my emotions rise when im tired. shes right about one thing, im tired. i cant sleep until 3-5 am and i feel like roadkill that just recently got run over and is still alive, experienceing organ failure. i have two voices in my head now: the one that makes me count and tap things 5 times and the one that tells me to just grab some ibuprofen and fucking overdose because nobody wants me anymore. i know that the second voice (his name is steven) isnt true because my girlfriend loves me but […]
