So I am going to start this out from the other day Friday i think, so my mom and i were in lowes getting stuff that she wanted i guess. So were walking and she points to in front of her and goes “i bet you are in heaven”.. I am pretty sure you know what is in lowes.. So i look what shes pointing at and its blades and box cutters.. I laughed to make it not look like i didn’t have tears coming out of my eyes.. That was so messed up. Then this morning she looks at me when im cleaning my […]
I give people hints all the time that i need help.. mentally physically and emtionally i cry out for help all the time and no one will just open their eyes.. UGHH. I hate life.. I recently watched a really good movie on netflix. It was called the suicide virgins it was really really good yall have to watch it.. It made me think .. i flushed my blades so i cant cut but ive been thinking of so many other objects to use i just cant do it i made a promise  i know if i do one ill keep doing it .
im just gonna run away ..
I really dont feel like i have a place in this world.. i was born to die young.. I just know it. I always think of myself and i cant do anything righ, i cant help people in any way.. I always push people away from me its pretty bad.. I just really dont have a talent. Im not smart. I cant write stories i cant sing i cant cheer anymore i messed my knee up. i cant help people out. i just cant do anything right. I dont want anybody to pity me thats the last thing i want.. if anybody watched the twilight […]
You ever feel numb inside and you just dont want to anything, Â you think about how many people you have hurt you know that you put them through so much pain. You know inside that you should just find a way to get your mind off of things but you turn your music up but your head phones on and all you think about is dying. All you want to do die. Lay in the road…JUST GET OUT OF THE WORLD.. Your ex text you and you just want to cry.. You just want to grab your blade but then you remember you flushed them […]