I lost my job in December. Since then, I’ve sent out dozens of resumes and haven’t gotten a call back. My savings are running out and debt is starting to mount up. My anxiety has gotten so bad that when I travelled to see my mom on Mother’s Day, I spent the whole trip worrying that there would be a fire that would kill my cat. In fact, I worry that the cat won’t come back every time it goes outside. I’m thinking of taking a camping trip and just… Not coming back from it. I’m not allowed to talk about methods. But I wrestling […]
My sister’s birthday is on Monday and she came home this weekend to celebrate which of course brought all sorts of drama.
Thursday: I texted my sister to find out her plans – no response.
Friday: My sister invited our mother to her friend’s house for pizza and cake, but mom didn’t want to go – allegedly because I wasn’t invited. Sister went to her friend’s house. Mom went for coffee with her friend. I stayed home alone (which was fine with me). Sister “noticed” my text from previous day and texted me to ask if I wanted to go for supper. I told her that Mom […]
I have some ephedrine hydrochloride that I got in Canada. For those that don’t know, ephedrine was the active ingredient in a lot of over-the-counter weight loss supplements in the 90s and early 2000s; the FDA banned the sale of ephedrine in 2004 when it was discovered that ephedrine could trigger heart attacks in people with undiagnosed heart disease – you know, the type of people that would be looking for a shortcut to losing weight. Anyway, I was thinking of packing up my ephedrine pills, some vodka I have leftover from the weekend, and a couple energy drinks and heading to the park; I’ll […]