I’m 21 and I’m already tired of this life. I don’t want to die..just want to disappear. I’m ready to give up everything I have, just to be in a better place. I started self harming last year. All these years, I was trying to be strong and pretending that I was normal after every shit that I’ve been through. Lying is more of a habit because nobody really wants to listen to your shit. Family still thinks that I’m fine and I’m scared to ask for help.
Day by day, I’m losing my sanity, cuts are getting more deeper and memories are fading.
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Don’t wanna wake up again.
Mistakes, it’s all I seem capable of at times.
Everybody make mistakes. it’s a part of learning. Right? Then why do you always keep on criticizing me? I mean, Stop it. If you can’t say anything nice then shut it. How am I supposed to do something right when all I hear about me is everything wrong??? Just because I try to ignore what you say and don’t react furiously, that doesn’t mean you can say whatever you want. Be sure to taste your words, before you spit them out. Some people will never understand that. And trust me, those people are so gonna regret it.
I’m new here.. I’ve been thinking about suicide a lot lately. I don’t know..nothing seems right. People say that they care, but they don’t show it. Why do people say stuff, which they don’t mean? I’m just 20.. I haven’t started living yet…and end is just so near. :/
I’m afraid…not afraid of dying but afraid of hurting people. My mother keep saying that, I wish you were never born.. I don’t feel anything anymore. I feel numb but most of the time it’s just emptiness.