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Autumn Jane Sky

I am a 19 year old living with achondroplasia dwarfism, am clinically depressed, have anxiety troubles and have unsuccessfully attempted to drown a dozen or so times. Hoping things will one day get better. Made a promise in march 2014 to try to make it through a full year. So only a few months left now.

here we go again?

by Autumn Jane Sky 11/5/2014

written by Autumn Jane Sky

So haven’t posted in a while and I guess it’s because things were okay. But since I can’t access my doctor right now, I ran out of my anti depressants and after two or three weeks of not taking my daily “happy” pill, I’ve sunk right back to where I was before. Have you ever felt like you’re body us literally screaming that it’s your time to die? That’s what it feels like now, but of course, a part if me flashes images of my brothers, my Lil sister, the friends I still do care about, and it says that if I die, I may […]

11/5/2014 0 comment

So? what now?

by Autumn Jane Sky 10/5/2014

written by Autumn Jane Sky

So recently I met someone. were officially dating and well its nice. He calms me and keeps me grounded, but i still feel like I’m going to drown, part of me feels as if i have to go, as if even if things get better, my mind and soul has chosen, and that my year is almost up. I haven’t shared with him my plans to go, i doubt i ever will. I hate how everyone thinks that he has managed to fix me already, i seriously don’t see how you can fix me. You cant fix monsters.

anyway, here’s a short story since i haven’t […]

10/5/2014 8 comments

A poem from last Year

by Autumn Jane Sky 9/18/2014

written by Autumn Jane Sky

So this is a sorta free verse lyric I wrote for my English class last year. Hope you like it. Sorta dark though. Happier ones still to come

One more.

One more year, one more week,

One more second In one more day,

One more sunrise, one more breath

One more night, don’t fade away.

They tell you, “you’re a fighter,”

Yet the don’t see the blood

Or burns etched by the fire

Or tears that come in floods.

They tell you to keep living,

When yoy feel dead inside

They say that it gets better,

Get up, stand out, don’t hide.

So you live one more day,

Counting minutes go by.

They add up to all these years

You […]

9/18/2014 5 comments

Trying this out. Hoping someone is out there?

by Autumn Jane Sky 9/17/2014

written by Autumn Jane Sky

Hi. I found this site last February by accident and have been popping in once and a while to check out posts. Today I decided to register. Why so? I’m not exactly sure. All I know is that I’ve tried two ways now to die, both have failed on numerous attempts. I’m seeing a psychologist and I’m on medication to control my anxiety problems and depression. I’m 4’2″ living with a type of dwarfism known as achondroplasia. I absolutely hate my body and luv carving it with pretty red sketches. There are voices inside my head and they aren’t all that pleasant. So Yeh, I’m […]

9/17/2014 25 comments