I’m in my 30s, have avoidant personality disorder, no friends, no family. I am literally alone all the time. My inner voice has turned into my father telling me how stupid I am. I’m a bit of perfectionist and often call myself “dumb mother fucker” over small things, like dropping my keys.
I’m in college but I don’t feel challenged. Life has become dull and I can’t stop visualizing quickly ending my life. I have a plan to do just that but make it seem as if I just left without a trace. Of course that takes time. I’ve been single for over tens […]