im at a 6 month church camp and ive cane to the realization this morning that God wants me to kill myself and that im possessed.. now i have to find a way to sneak off campus and do this
Reading through my suicide note and plan and just mad at myself for not going through with it last time when I was so close… Thinking about all of the times I could have done it and I didnt because im such a coward. If I would have, I wouldnt have to deal with the constant aching in my heart… im not sure how much more I can handle before I blow up