For the past 2 weeks I have kept from committing suicide to explore all possibilities of staying alive. Unlike a lot of others who are suicidal, I don’t have any of these ‘dreams’ that I can relate to. I can see nothing at all that life could offer to me that I would find any real purpose in accepting that. It all makes me feel like a fool. I ask myself why. The answer I find is that mankind is being destroyed right before our very eyes, but we are searching for something aside  from that which is ludicrous. The only purpose that I want is […]
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berndt2010
For some reason, since I was 16 (I’m now 39), I have been fascinated with death. Not in a morbid sense, in fact, I am anything but morbid. For reasons unbeknown to myself, I always saw death as something beautiful and extremely exciting, and not the upsetting and dark thing that most people feel about it. As a child I was thought of as weird to not get upset, or be fearful, of death.
As I got older, I began to feel that suicide seems to be the solution for mostly ‘good’ people (I mean, you don’t hear of as many pedophiles, rapists and murderers committing […]